halia pahit

people appreciates better in the absence of others.

in life,sometimes you need a break; just to miss people.

i want to be there.to have that feelings

:)

i am trying to say something here.but nobody listens.

Sometimes

sometimes we forget.

we forget to appreciate things that are in front of us. not until they were gone. we are to busy looking for something we dont have.

and you. you disappointed me.

you were busy looking for your self, you said. but you forget without her at the first place. you will never ever be HERE.

you were busy looking for your true love,a partner of your life. but you forgot that you have hers since the day you were born.

kenapa hati kawan lain reti nak jaga, tapi hati mak sendiri susah sangat?

you were lucky enough. i feel the pain. i watched the tears.

and you? busy looking for the WHY answer. too busy being dramatic. too busy for yourself.

everybody made mistake. stop blaming people. and take your own responsibility of it.

im still searching for myself as well,but at least i know my limit.

"berapa banyak pun harta kita ada, kain kapan je benda yang paling mahal kte boleh beli tuk parents kte bila meninggal, canggih mana pun phone kita, tak kan dapat dengar suara dorang sampai bila-bila"

it hurts to talk, but it killed not to.

thanks for the essay sarah hani. its really inspiring :p
okay wrong smiley :)

its been a long time since i write anything emotional or personal. i've been trying to avoid that
but boleh tak for one day nak mengarut and emo jap?

im talking to you trough my post. just for the sake of expressing.

to my D-die hard fan,

If you are reading this, you'll know who you are.
Do you know that its getting annoying hearing you complaining the same thing over and over again? im starting to think that you are pathetic. ohh please, all of us are trying hard to survive this world, facing different type of people. Dont blame others if we are living this life, and you are just so left behind. the world dont ONLY revolve around you. i understand, we have different way of dealing things and perhaps you are a hard-thinker. fine. but be less emotional and more rational. can you? you are making a big issue out of very stupid,small things. and yet there nothing you do to make it better. and the next day you'll keep revolve around the same problem.

Stop, just stop. No, im not going to say, i understand how you felt, cause some how maybe i dont. but what i know for sure is, enough is enough.live your life. there are other bigger things to worry about in our near future. i care bout you, my dear friend. lets embrace things, shall we? :)

" Dont try to understand everything, cause sometimes it's not meant to understand. But rather to accept. "

suka hati je curi dari fb abang

okay. lapar dah. bye
:)

just one STUPID mistake.

why why why (!)

last night, i did something really,like effing stupid. if i can actually write THOSE WORDS here. i will. SERIUSLY. cause its really stupid that i wish i can actually rewind to the moment i clicked that "delete permanently" button. okay apa jadi actually? takpelah buat sakit hati je cerita. tapi lagi sakit hati orang yg baca. kalau tk nak cerita awal-awal baik tak payah start post weh. alright, sabar lah :(


semalam,
i ACCIDENTALLY delete my Pictures folder in this laptop. and ini bukan delete yg masuk recycle bin then boleh restore tu eh. if its like that, i wont bother to write bout it. this is PERMANENTLY. no, its not another case where im being overreacted. that Folder was the soul to my laptop. dalam tu tersirat nya segala memories yang di-captured. Daripada zaman high school, every outings, pictures Raya, holidays, events etc.

Every single picture was deleted.

and some of them were meant to be my one and only collection. The moment i realised it, it was just too late to cancel it. sedih dia tak terkata okayy. mungkin takde sesiapa yang akan faham. its okay. you and i have our different way of dealing it. Even though a friend tried his very best to retrace and restore those pictures. tapi boleh kira guna jari lah berapa je yg tak corrupt lagi :'(

those pictures keep my past alive form time to time.
and yes, I'm a very sentimental person.
enough said.

- intan nur hadilah

i should, but i cant.

"when we are dying or had a catastrophic lost, we all move to five(5) distinct stages of grieve;

we going to denial, because the lost is so unthinkable. we cant imagine it was true.
we become angry with everyone, angry to survivors, angry to ourselves.
then we bargained. we beg, we plead. we offer everything we had. we offer our soul in exchange for a one more day. when the bargaining had fail and the anger is too hard to maintained, we fallen to depression, despair until finally we have to accept that we had done everything can.we let go.
we let go and move into acceptance."


- Grays anatomy-
:)

everyone is a story-teller.

ielts over. result?13 days from now.
counting days? nope.

when home after the exam.
in the KTM,
packed with people. diff kind of them.
two Malay girls playing some rOck-kapak songs on loudspeakers.
confuse whether they were trying to show off their phone
or they think everyone would be entertain with their songs.
mereka sangat berani and tidak malu.
something we should respect at. at least.

a group of guys came in frm other station.
spotted few stainless steel on their face.
heard some dramatic phone conversation too.
"u kat mne? nak jumpa tak? *waiting* nak lah BABI! haa kan dh kene."

a guy and a girl standing beside me.facing the door.
she was holding the 'Anne Frank' book with Inti College Subang Jaya label on it.
suddenly, the guy fixed something on his pant. the zip,the belt.
nope, its not normal. its took about 10 minutes.
*pandang kiri, pandang kanan. pandang belakang pun ada. awkward*
the other girl was holding her book in a way blocking her view.
suprisingly, the girl spoke to me, " ishh lelaki tuh mcm tk betul je"
we laughed and the guy stopped, acting normal again. thank you.

conclusion, balik rumah best.
:)

woohoo

Sayings:

1. Think about smething too hard, n dat thing will appear in ur dreams.

2. Mimpi mainan syaitan

But v r in Ramadhan.n setan2 smua bukn kna ikat ke? Hm,wtv it is.im juz hoping u dunt drop by again d nxt tyme i close my eyes.please?=) or mayb i shud simply think less about u.

beware of nuts

stare

dark forces
...
how do you define one?

thanks for the bus ticket

xxxxx

i want to cntinue this post :)
juz nw.i made myself very clear to sme1.mayb too straight4ward.sory:) but its a reality.
so,yea.a pt to note in our evryday life..

jgn lupa kewujudan kehidupn lpas kebangkitn.
jgn leka dr tugas d dunia ni
berebut skng.x semestinya kawin esk.
if ada jodoh,den ok r

especially to both of u.get ur life in a proper manner.dere's definitely more to life than juz keep on tangling to this issue.or mayb.kalau dh kemaruk sgt, jgn r smpai buat dia sedih.n kau.i'll talk to u soon.

WHY.

monday morning started great. A junior guy gave me his seat in the bus. and he's cute. so yeah, GREAT morning :D

that morning, we had our new english lecturer fr the sem. Mrs.Kireen.
as we introduced ourselves, she asked ' is medicine your first choice?'
everyone seems to answer. 'yes,its always be my first choice' with confidence. etc etc.
and i was the ONLY one. who answered 'sort of..~~'
and she had this reaction, OMG,you have to say yes.
cause it never be my first choice YET. yeahh i know.

tuesday: seems long enough to stay.i get mad easily.
and its soo obvious. awkward moment.
maybe its the hormone. or maybe its the people.
and there were questionmarks every where. started to wondering things with WHY.

dear Almighty,
im sorry for my stupidity. but i cant stop the curiousity.
i know there are GREAT reasons behind these. and one day, im gonna find out.

but the best part is, i know
there are special humanS. who will try their very best to cheer me up.
I LOVE YOU.
(;

-intan.nur.hadilah-

pagi yang suram?

the king of pop
has gone

*maybe this is how it felt wen P.ramlee or Sudirman passed away?*

moving on
im back in melawati.
nothing to look forward tho 4 dis weeknd.
ouh super wtv.
i really need something exciting to happen.
mayb a moment juz plain talkin wif you? haha.
never fail to make me smile ;D

its a saturday evening

im stuck in dady's office :(
juz got bck 4rm d lib.surprisingly
d lib,has nthing to offer me dis tyme
books on hurricane was nt easily obtained
went to d kid's section
sat dere.got a few books on basic huriiccane
read.look.
how i wish i culd run around dat area like those small kids
without life problems n all
:]
wany did tell me last thurs.v were hanging around in d surau.afta reading few articles pasted on d wall."life is hard"said wany.i noe wut she meant
*berusaha memperjuangkan tugas khalifah dunia*

dis so called long weekend.is nt dat much fun.as i tot.i think my other rkn2,is having lots of fun wheras i am rotting in despair.huh :[

i had my say dis morn
hope kau is doing fine tday
:)

hear me out

it has been a very hectic day
woke up late
late as in really late..
imy

had my directed investigation *m3* tday..
evnthough it was a group tinggy
it was really full of tense
evry1 was helping out
bt at d end
u r actually juz alone doing it
aftr tcher went out of clas
v were like gasping 4 air *exxageratingg*
like as if..
v were nt breathing in that 50mins
it was nt tough.bt tense~
n tmrow,
will b d individual session.
i wonder how tough wuld it be..
huhh~
imy

i shud nt be blogging tday
wif my tests n all..
but i am
cz i cant express dat much tday
~~
imy

n i wonder how ppl wuld juz easily say:
forgive and forget
4 me,it is not dat easy
when d only thing dat matter is
the TRUST from a friend to a friend
never doubt that;
imysm
...
but,how should i trust u again?
i wonder
n will keep on thinking
to figure things out
cz i stil <3 style you

take care
imissyou
you are MY person