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intan nur hadilah

Hi 2014! :)

Tak dapat nak recap 2013 macam Sarah Hani.
Terasa lama sangat dah tak singgah, luang masa dekat sini.

Life had been so packed, packed with so many things going on.

Exam and then winter break yang awesome. Alhamdulillah.

Wanted to write about my winter breaks,

But knowing me, I would spent some time thinking what to write,draft it and publish. And perhaps end up, not even write it at all. Maybe one day. Yeah one day.

We went to Spain. Barcelona - Granada -Madrid- Cordoba to be exact. And went home from Lisbon, Portugal. 

A girl can dream. Yes you can.

Rasa macam masih mimpi dengan rezeki yang Allah bagi.

To get the chance to travel to different places in the world,

To witness the beautiful places and God's creation,

To widen your horizon by learning the history of places,

Meet different kind of people, learnt to know people.

Embrace the beautiful moments and memories with the girls.

Dan banyak  lagi cuma masih tak terungkap dengan kata-kata yang tak seberapa ni :')

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NEW SEMESTER. CLINICAL YEARS.

Even though I might be the last one among my circle of medical friends who went though their first day of clinical years, but yeah ITS OKAY, ITS ALRIGHT. (denial)

Terasa lain sangat dah bila clinical.

If I know life would be so much different, I would enjoy my lectures to the max. haha.

Having different timing of rotation with the housemates. Semua dah lain.

Its time, to be on your own. For real.

To be bold, to have the courage to voice out.

To be okay with not being okay.

To adapt with no proper lunch break neither prayers break.

This is how life going to be, for this semester, 

Perhaps THIS IS HOW LIFE WILL BE FROM NOW ON.

Belajar dekat negara orang, negara asing sememang nya bukan lah satu benda yang mudah.

Apa aku belajar hari ni, to survive this is to fight the insecurity, inferiority.

Sometimes you claimed things that going to pull you down is your environment.

How people treat you. But fear not, your true 'enemy' is the devil speaking inside you.

How you reflect yourself, how you see yourself is how people going to treat you.

Kalau rasa diri ni kecil sangat, kecil lah dia. Confident sikit.

So,

Fight it Intan Nur Hadilah. Hold on to it. Insya Allah :)

Jangan pernah lupa peristiwa kenapa kau bangkit.

The day you finally sort out why you are still fighting to be a good doctor. 

Sunday, 24th June 2012.

13 things happened in 2013

Not numbered in preference.

1. Performed my first delivery in Campbelltown hospital. 

2. Random dancing to beyonce songs moments with roomie

3. The "soul" talk at souled out,ampang

4. Truth about a housie reveals 

5. Left Georgiana crescent, enters harris park

6. Was denied being in a consultation room of a cancer pt; who was the yr3 staff coordinator

7. The so many ups and downs of 121

8. Went to london and paris

9. 4th sept was spent with candles and choc chip muffins

10. Adik, along and mummy visited campbelltown at different times of the year

11. Diagnosed with asthma in july2013 

12. "You dont need to like kids to pass paediatrics osce"

13. "I miss my person" moments

-sarah hani. 

#throwback

 intan nur hadilah

4th Decemeber 2013.

Happy 17th Birthday Qistina.

My sweet little sister, my first person I will recall when the word 'cousin' popped out.

We grew up basically near to each other.

I watched dearly your life transition.

To an annoying little girl who rebel much to this very heart warming lady.

It seems like every time I see you, I see me, in you :)

Writing this down, because changes is inevitable.

Your real life adventure will starts once you're out of school.

Enter college, meet new different kind of friends and stay away from home.

And, I pray to God that He will make you strong to face this new life.

Perhaps the next time I see you when I'm back, you'll be slightly different.

Its okay, thats normal. Its just that I hope different you is a better you.

Uhibukki fillah my little sister <3 nbsp="" p="">

Because changes are inevitable.

Just like the weather.

One day its autumn, the next day you remember its winter.

And so does people.

Again, and again.

:)

9.46am

7th December 2013

Up and Down.

intan nur hadilah


Had a phase of 'breakdown' fr these past days.
Right after the final exam timetable came out.
And guess what,

THEY SHIFTED IT A WEEK EARLIER. WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

out of sudden.

Tak tahu kenapa aku geram sangat.
Maybe because I'm still not prepared to be in that final exam mode.
And of course I'm sad and frustrated that I had to cancel my flight to London to meet Sarah, Azri and Wari.
Just becuase the date is now coincide with the flight ticket.
Its one of the thing that I've been looking forward for the past months.
Our 'reunion' in London. Haihh.
Berkecai hati.

I REALLY need that break.
To meet some familiar faces and people to hang out with.
After adapting to this new life and environments. I just need that, you know.
Plus with the homesick feeling while you're sick.
Teringat how Mama would take care of me when I'm sick :(

So end up I felt like its just too much to digest within a day.
And I was emotionally unpredictable person. Sekejap okay, sekejap tiba-tiba rasa nak nangis.
Kesian AMMR kena face it. Sorryy. haha


Hang in there Intan.
Aren't you that bright, optimistic person? :)

RINDU NYA ♥

" Being strong is to love someone in silence,

to radiate happiness when we are unhappy,

to forgive someone who does not deserve forgiveness,

to stay calm in moment of despair,

to show jot when we do not feel it,

to smile when we want to cry,

to make someone happy when we our own heart is broken,

to be silent when we feel like screaming our anguish,

to comfort when we need to be comforted,

and to have faith when we longer no believe."

-Riccky Zulkifli

Reflect, message in the pretty bottle.

intan nur hadilah

I like it when I found something new I love to do.

It makes me feels like I get to know myself better. You know? 

Gituuuuu.

And so Im starting to love my forever alone weekend walk.

"Pergi dengan siapa kt situ?"

" Ohh sorang je."

" Ermm is everything okay? Kenapa sorang?"

" Haha. okay je lah. Saja suka."

A time alone to yourself is something that I think everyone should have.

To discover uhh-meh-zing walking-distance places around Galway.

EHH AKU SUKA GILAA LAH. Serius. haha.

Freedom.

To embrace the beauty,

To observe people around you,

To discover new things.

To reflect.

Deep with thoughts and emotions.

Gratitude and love.

I fell in love more and more with Galway.

Alhamdulillah.

Sunday 20th October. | Spanish Arch |

all picture form Iphone 4 JEEEE :p

Its was so amazingly beautiful, every single of it.
And seriously lagi sikit nak menangis time discover the rainbow :')

Analogi nya--

Andai kata kau pergi Art Gallery. Kau pusing, kau hayati semua art kat situ.
Apa yang kau fikir setiap kali kau kagum dengan satu art. Mesti kau akan fikir something like,
" Siapa yang lukis ni? Kagum gila. Smart kot. Apa yang dia nak cuba sampaikan sebenarnya?"

Atau seantara dengan nya lah. Kan?

" Indeed, in the creation of the heaven and the earth and the alternation of the night and the day are sign those of understanding." -Quran

" We must study the message behind all His beauty. Because if we do not, we are like the one who finds a message inside a beautifully decorated bottle, yet become so enamoured by the bottle, that you never open the message."

Semua yang kita lihat ni hanya lah reflection.
"Reflection to His Greatness, His majesty, His beauty.
A pointer to His might and His power."

Logik kan?
:)

Biar deep sikit, bukan semata nak post Instagram je. hahaha.

ANYWAY
First exam next Tuesday.
Tapi entah kenapa aku rajin sangat lah nak post.
Pre-exam syndrome, memang macam ni. Menyampah i.
Wish me all the best. Doa doa kan ♥

Sabr.

intan nur hadilah


Sesungguh nya manusia itu banyak ragam nya.
Kadang- kadang ada yang kita suka, ada yang kita tak suka. 
Ada yang kita rasa pelik, ada yang kita tak faham lansung pun ada.
Worry not, memahami semua manusia bukan lah kerja kita pun pada asal nya.
Anggap je lah 'All emotions are unique.'


Akan ada satu fasa dalam hidup, di mana kadang-kadang kita tak boleh pilih dengan siapa kita nak bersama.
Setiap hari, setiap masa, untuk setiap yang terjadi dalam kehidupan seharian.
You see that's the challenge in life, and that's also the beauty of it.
Oh well, its depends on how you want to see and define it.


Kau belajar banyak benda baru.
Kind hearted people teach you kindness.
Loud and cheerful people teach you happy vibes.
Hard working people teach you motivation.
Annoying people teach you patience.

dan seantara dengan nya. 


People change, almost most of the times. Better or worse, depends?
Sometimes it is part of the adaptation. Sometimes because they wanted to. Sometimes because of the ignorance. Or sometimes.....I dont know.

And I know there's some part of me had changed recently. 
Aku tak biasa 'melawan'. Kalau aku marah aku senyap. Aku biar.
You know those moments where sometimes your anger turn into tears?
Mereka yang rapat tau, kalau aku marah aku memang tak boleh pandang that person in the eyes sampai hati aku reda. 
Lepas tu kalau perlu cakap, cakap.

Aku boleh berbalas kata
kalau itu yang buat hati aku puas.

Tapi aku pilih utk diam,
sebab aku tahu kepuasan itu hanya sementara.

Jadi buat apa nak sia-sia?

Some things are better left unsaid.
Don’t they?

Yang pegang hati kau bukan manusia tapi Tuhan.

" If people display bad character towards us, it should not make us drop our good character as a result." - Mufti Ismael Menk

Come on Intan Nur Hadilah, you know better. *monolog*
xxx

Hello there Galway.

intan nur hadilah

Its been 1 months plus since I'm away from dear home and Mama.
" Galway? So far so good."
The same answer to the common question asked, " Hows Galway?"
And I really meant it.

Its quiet a total diff place form home.
The environment, the weather, the food and the people.
Oh well obviously Malaysia will always win in term of food :D

Most of the people here are very friendly with good manners.
Perhaps because it a small city compared to other place like Dublin.
Banyak lagi benda nak cerita tapi aku tak tahu macam mana nak cerita.
Or mcm malas sebab dah lama sangat postpone post ni :(


If nak update bout interesting place to go when you visit Galway, perhaps its another post.
KALAU RAJIN LAH :(

Alhamdulillah.
It took nearly a month to feel really homesick.
Can you believe it? Me a girl who never been away far far from home.
Pencapaian. haha :D

Tipu lah kalau tak homesick. Especially on a gloomy weather day.
Serius kalau dah homesick, hari hari aku akan homesick.
But come on.. KEEP CALM AND BE STRONG :p

So here's a picture of here and there in Galway.

Hari Raya celebration

the Quadrangle

Cliff of Moher

Galway Shop Street

saturday evening at Salthill

And its Autmn! :)

from my window

Perhaps, next time with words. For now let the pictures describe the thousand 'blocked words'.

Countdown till next summer break starts now!

xxx