Up and Down.

intan nur hadilah


Had a phase of 'breakdown' fr these past days.
Right after the final exam timetable came out.
And guess what,

THEY SHIFTED IT A WEEK EARLIER. WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

out of sudden.

Tak tahu kenapa aku geram sangat.
Maybe because I'm still not prepared to be in that final exam mode.
And of course I'm sad and frustrated that I had to cancel my flight to London to meet Sarah, Azri and Wari.
Just becuase the date is now coincide with the flight ticket.
Its one of the thing that I've been looking forward for the past months.
Our 'reunion' in London. Haihh.
Berkecai hati.

I REALLY need that break.
To meet some familiar faces and people to hang out with.
After adapting to this new life and environments. I just need that, you know.
Plus with the homesick feeling while you're sick.
Teringat how Mama would take care of me when I'm sick :(

So end up I felt like its just too much to digest within a day.
And I was emotionally unpredictable person. Sekejap okay, sekejap tiba-tiba rasa nak nangis.
Kesian AMMR kena face it. Sorryy. haha


Hang in there Intan.
Aren't you that bright, optimistic person? :)

RINDU NYA ♥

" Being strong is to love someone in silence,

to radiate happiness when we are unhappy,

to forgive someone who does not deserve forgiveness,

to stay calm in moment of despair,

to show jot when we do not feel it,

to smile when we want to cry,

to make someone happy when we our own heart is broken,

to be silent when we feel like screaming our anguish,

to comfort when we need to be comforted,

and to have faith when we longer no believe."

-Riccky Zulkifli

Doa kan Intan please? :)

I really wish this is my last EOS in IMU.
IMU, i love you, love you enough to let you go. As National University of Ireland awaits me. Do you NUI? InsyaAllah :)

Need to pass. Need to pass.
Its the least i can wish for.

Youuu, yes youu!
Pray hard fr me would you? Thank youu. Really do appreciate it ♥

"WHYYYY?!" You may asked.

intan nur hadilah

As we grow older, there will be more responsbility, more expectation and more challenges.

Nak dekat dekat exam ni, being mentally suppressd my time end up emotion pun boleh jadi fragile.
As a student of whatever course perhaps you'll reach a point where you end up being so stress and starts questioning.

" Why the heck i choose medicine?"

" Menyesal nya aku amik course ni dulu. Kalau amik course lain mesti senang."

BUKAN SAJA-SAJA Allah meletakkan anda dalam BIDANG itu..
BUKAN SAJA-SAJA Allah mengurniakan anda KEPAKARAN itu..
BUKAN SAJA-SAJA Allah memasukkan KELEMAHAN itu..
BUKAN SAJA-SAJA Allah memberikan UJIAN sebegitu..
BUKAN SAJA-SAJA Allah membiarkan anda mengemudi dalam KEADAAN sebegitu..

MELAINKAN Allah tahu anda akan memberikan sesuatu dalam bidang itu..
MELAINKAN Allah tahu anda bakal membiakkan ilmu-ilmu itu..
MELAINKAN Allah akan temukan anda dengan insan-insan ikhlas membantu..
MELAINKAN Allah mahu menguatkanmu..
MELAINKAN Allah mahu anda tahu betapa tingginya kasih sayangNya padamu..
Masihkah lagi tidak bersyukur?

#copied

WORD.
Came across this when i feel so despair. Awwww :')

Its true they said,
When Allah brings you to it, He will take you through it.

End of semester 5 (2012)
29days to final EOS5.

the fear has yet to end

13th july 2011
the date that all UWS students awaits for..results were released yesterdy.aku cuak dah.lepas subuh,siap mimpi lgi pasl results :| haihhh..abis panic smua...i woke up..gi living room (cz my laptop kat luar bilik)...so,aku pun bkk laptop,tggu2.....bkk fb...*jantung mcm nk tercabut dh:|*..pastu ernie keluar bilik,tnya psl results..(damnnn...dia dh tgk dh)...aku bkk tumblr lak..trying to ignore the fact that results sbnrnnya dh ada dkat student portal ... lepas tu,azra lak kuar bilik...ckp dh check..aku main2 lagi kat net..mlas nk tgk,.takut!

after a few meditation,beranikan diri gak gi tekan vuws tu..tgk2............

results aku PENDING.kena tahan..

sama je mcm ernie and azra punya.

x pernah2 results aku kena tahan...mcm a problem kid lak...sbnrnya document kteorng outstanding..hntar dh minggu lpas..but itu dh kira "terlambat"..ngarut sgguh makck kat school of med aku tu...

so,kesimpulannya..aku xtau lagi results aku.tidak tahuuuuuuuu....aaaaa..cepatlaaa release results kami wahai school of med UWS! 

d fear never ends till the results are out :(

2weeks more.

STUDY WEEKS till 16th May has officially begin.

and yet im still addicted to wasting time.

study Intan. STUDYYYYYYYYYYYY.

Truly from,

Dr.Moo on your study table.

what happened for spring finals..

blog walking.instead of stalking
:D
a brand new morning,i should say :)
bblog-walked..to my bro's blog.and extended from there..reading the SPM-students having their say for the exam they are sitting now..its funny to read,knowing that they are experiencing;how i felt once ;)
i was the budak,who challenged it all the way.and got disappointed when the results came out ;)
----------- SAM passed by, now in med school ---------------------

so,i had my Spring finals for almost a month.last november was nerve wrecking.i always wanted to update on my exam pprs.how i felt..how i performed..but time never permits me to do so :)
some short summaries of my exams:
1. my exam pprs are in diff styles (SAQ,MCQ,MEQ) but testing for the same knowledge.so,basicly,i have to be ready FOR EVERYTHING by the 1st ppr..n by the last ppr,i would be in -dont know whatelse to read- mode..i experienced d same when it was d autumn finals.
2. so,d one n only SAQ ppr was okay for me.ookay doesnt mean -can pass with flying colours.ok?- it was just bearable.
3. MEQ was deadly..my 1st time sitting for MEQ.dey presented Qs in terms of cases.didnt expect it to be dat deadly.microscopic changes of appendicitis? danggg..n d whole 10/20marks for safety-quality Q..i was so unsure.i bantai d whole way,n went back home n studied dat 20+ slides of lecture..i screwed up the 1st Q *types of error* damnnnn..but i heard,i was not alone.fine,sarah hani,you are not alone.but is dat good enough for you to move on? *hope so* :|
4. 2 MCQ pprs..d MCQ ppr,days after d MEQ ppr..dat was tough.mayb bcz i lost some of my confidence to MEQ n SAQ..n with the 'kelam-kabut' journey to med school..that might affect a lil bit..d last MCQ,was bearable..MCQs are still the questions type A,B,C,D (sometimes ,E) choices ones.....hmm,*i dunt want to recall doubts i have* :|
5. anat spot test.last ppr i had,it was for 22mins only..11 stations,2 mins each.spot on the labels on the cadavers..the heart station was difficult :| the other stations,i tried ;) hopefully,that's good enough.....

results coming out soon

ignoring it for the moment

----------- exams over.notes and books all packed up in the rack. shopping mode on ---

*nxt post.malas tulis2 dah.depress igt balik exams :(*

i want to pass so badly.pls Allah?

:)

digoxin itu sejenis drug

so..kalau orang masuk..mcm xde pilihan tmpt dduk..so,dduk ats katil r

but perjalanan nk pergi ke katil...byk rintangan.haha.

itu plastic casing utk pensel/pen/pemadam pegi exam! :D

kerusi di meja itu xboleh di gunakan ;) sbb ada notes....

bilik kau ini "fragile" laaaa... (housemates,2010)

haha.sapa yg x pnah tgk lagi,meh la sini.

bilik aku dah xde ruang akibat exam.

bukan sbb rajin,mmg aku ni jenis men-terabur-kn notes.haha

tgh hari ini ada paper.

aku kena buat baik2.

pressure

intan,feel free.to change layout simple/dull ini tau.haha.aku tukar,saja2 :D

ditto

esok.MCQ.not my last paper.

dekat fb,penuh status..org dh habis exam *yg mana yg start lagi lmbt,pun dh habis :(*

ada juga yg ckp dh smpai Malaysia.

aku?.stuck depan laptop.baca perkara2 pelajaran sem1.kehidupan diteruskan selepas 3pprs...

aku makin risau.

Dear Allah,aku mahu pass 1st year.amin :)

hari ini,Raya Aidiladha untuk Sydney.aku beraya di rumah

solat raya,khutbah raya di ruang tamu

makan ketupat,lemang,kuah kcg,rendang INSTANT di dapur

takbir mlm tadi,buat dlm blik aku yg kecil/sempit/semak ini

hidup di perantauan begini la :)

oh x lupa,aku pakai baju kurung juga pagi tadi,untuk 3jam sahaja ;)

sekian :)

spring finals

WHAT IS YOUr PLAN OF ATTACK?

08 nov - 17 nov

finals mode: ON

ya Allah,please grant me my wish

passing the 1st yr is all i want

*should i deactivate facebook?

can i live without it?

i wonder

urbanscape '10

KLUE Urbanscape 2010

I WANT TO GO, REAL BAD (!)

last year dah miss free free je.

but yeah, thanks to mr.exam *again&again*. i might be missing this too this year.

but since big bro is coming home this weekend, abang tolong cover line fr mama okay?

you know i'll always do the same thing.

:D

p.s : Aku tahu lah kau tak kan lupa,sarah . if lupa, then so long bestfriend. delete blog ni.HAHA

OMG, Waka Waka?

Tak sangka masa berlalu dengan cepat.Empat tahun dah berlalu. Sarah, kita dah besar. Tak sangka kita dah ada team kegemaran utk Fifa World Cup 2010. Kau sokong orange, aku sokong merah. Dulu kita cakap mereka tipikal, sekarang kita? Sejak kau update status ni :

aku redha kita dah matang. Even dah lama kita tak bergossip trough skype, antara perkara pertama kita cakap pasal goal USA dgn England yang agak mengecewakan itu. Mungkin ini hanya satu fasa dalam kehidupan. Tapi apa-apa pun, aku still dengan SouthKorea. Kalau dah out, aku berhijrah ke team Orange kau,okay hani? HAHA :D ohh ye,aku lupa nak mention. aku memang sengaja crop sampai comment Lokman. Hiburan tambahan.

post ni memang tiada motif tertentu. Before i forget, goodluck sarah hani for your exam yang akn habis this thursday. and bla bla bla kau nak gi shopping after that. yeah yeah but aku still stuck dengan exam lagi two week etc etc. WHATEVER okay. haha.

Theme blog ini ditukar sempena penghormatan kepada kepada exam mood. gila geek kan kan?

after my last post, tetiba theme blog ni hilang. nampak sangat Bloggie dah bosan dengan exam-based post aku. Bloggie hang in there eh sayanggg. Sekejap je lagi (sambil membelai screen laptop).

ITS JUNE BABBYYYYY :D

i'll be missing you tooo. cepat lah balik BTN :(

kau orang!

aku juga ada peperiksaan

noktah

bila nak habis?

currently im started to feel:

mentally exhausted

with my LONG period exam.

next week and beyond going to be much 'hell' as A2 papers on the row.
sementara rakan perjuagan Alevel yg lain dah habis exam. GREAT.
HAVE FUN ahmad muzzammil,azri jasni and aliah fatin.
i need to be strong mentally and physically for the next 20 days.
currently forgot how it feel to be in boredom.

exam kills people. eventually

May Allah be with us

SEMOGA BERJAYA

GOODLUCK

so,was browsing through my picture folder.to edit n make a collage of our pics..bt apparently.picnik n this uws internet barrier has some un-solved conflicts..so,i cant edit n make them look nice :) so,among hundreds *there might be thousands tho* of our pics..i chose the very last pic of us last hmmm 3+months ago :) missing you weii =]

so,for your finals ni..i didn't send back any goodluck card or charm..or even hiring someone to put up a goodluck banner dekat akasia tu....but i suppose the goodluck aura has reached u..since the day ko duduk trials :) i know your difficulties *maybe not all* sejak ko masuk intec..n aku hope..utk finals ni..ko dh dpt cover balik smua tu..gain confidence..keep the exam momentum all the way till 29jun2010 :)

aku tahu kau boleh buat.aku mahu kau buat sehabis baik.all the best,intan nur hadilah :)

-A note for all-

a simple update. simple but not yet sweet eh, sarah hani.

okay masa yang ditunggu-tunggu telah tiba. or akan tiba or any way you want to acknowledge it.

my Alevel Final is here baby. so, this is serious talk. no more i want to deactivate myself from blogging, yet i kept posting crap. yeah, crap. EXAM MODE IS ON.

13th May to 29th June

a month over KOT.

Alert: The next hunded words will be written in Bahasa Malaysia dan English yang berbaur keihklasan dari hati Intan Nur Hadilah bt Purdiono, INH :)

Kehadapan sesiapa yang pernah berinteraksi dgn INH sama ada melalui dunia realiti, dunia maya, atau pun dunia imaginasi, i would like to apologize for anything and everything. i meant anything that i accidentally or purposely that might hurt any of your feeling internally or externally. or dengan kata ringkas, apa-apa je lah;

segala terkasar bahasa

sarcastic yang terlampau

kata-kata yang disalah erti

kritikan yang menguris hati

gossip gossip yang tidak tahu level kebenaran nya

judgement with no strong basis

status atau comment Facebook yang mengecilkn hati

hutang material atau budi yang tidak sengaja atau sengaja

annoyed face expression

unnecessary ignorance

stupid or lame joke which is seriously NOT funny

over emotion cursing words

fake hope or promises

unreturned love (HAHA. okay ini tidak perlu)

and last but not least your precious time of reading this

:)

ini tidak bermksud yang bila exam or raya je nak apologizing, cuma lets just say, waktu yang paling afdal and crucial. and to A-level RANGERS of INTEC especially IMU rangers, wishing you all the best. May He helps us all way trough until the end, okay itu je kot. take care bloggie<3

Alhamdullilah, i passed my IMU placement. thankful :)

but the journey doesnt stop here.

its half-way now.

kehadapan blog12345:).

hurm okay when i said,im going to deactivate for two whole weeks. you know i dont really meant it, right? nak tulis something juga. nak waste time lagi. someone please take this broadband AWAY from me. TOLONG lah. haihh. ohh ohh, first week dah berlalu. do you know how it feels like? NOTHING. sebab second week lagi lah paper heavy,complex and sekufu dengan nya.

buts its okay. sebab :for now, terima je lah. segala external,internal pressure. cerita first week?
"asal lambat je muka kau intan, lambat je kau weh. dari first sem lagi." (Paan,2010)
HAHA. ohh yeah. seriously itu fakta yang tak dapat nak deny.
its always me and my roomate who would be one of the last two person who would actually walk cross the great hall sebab seat DEPAN SEKALI je tinggal, time semua orang dah siap nak tunggu examiner ckp,

" okay you can start now. i'll follow the time on the clock in front. etc"

OKAY. ingat tak dapat nak deny juga, confirm ada yang cakap, bujet ah dia ni, asyik datang lambat je. ingat sengaja ke? dah turun awal pun, nasib mcm tk menyebelahi kteorg. sedih okayy. okay siapa suruh turun tepat 8.30am. dah salah, bising nak cover. FINE. next week, tekad turun pukul 8.15am. intan please lah eh. kteorang dah annoyed tgk muka yang sama datang last.

OKAYYY. fine!
haha

next week ada C4. FYI, its the most terrifying paper of all for me. last sem, i gave up of trying to answer this paper in the middle of the exam. siap boleh gi toilet lagi time orang lain struggle. nak buat macam mana if nak start solution pun dah blank. so its end up me stared at the paper and vice versa. rasa nya, now OKAY KOT. at least, boleh start solution. kes stuck in the middle, its a different story :) so DONT HIT ME BABY ONE MORE TIME.

key: Baby refer to core math paper 4 :p

tak sabar nak tengok Alice in the Wonderland 3D after exam :D
sarah, kenapa short and sweet? ngess. HAHA.

five four three two one.

<whiteboard bilik A/301 laman 7 :)

yup yup. countdown sudah bermula.
countdown hbis exam. hbis third sem.
and of course LOONG holiday.
especially to kak atikah mansor yg dah lama tak balik Kedah.
happy countdown-ing cik kak.
:D

P.S: ye sarah, countdown kau advance 2 hari. senyaap :p

even if the sky is falling down.

studyweek sudah bermula.
sarah hani, i'll be here. every time dah hbis paper, msg me okay ?
:)

SAM is coming to an end =D

my finals is coming right up peeps

:)

2/11/2009-11/11/2009

raya :D

via ilove-blog.

it's not the time to de-motivate urself

this is the last lap

SPRINT,sarah hani!
:)