Hello second year :)

Radzi Rahman ;

i forgot i have a belog! where goes those horny feeling to update blog ni~

Kenapa tiba-tiba Radzi ni ? Hi Radzi! ;) Well, this was on my news feed today. and my point is;

Exactly! I used to be so passionate in this, but now? Blurghhhhhhhhh. Malas.

So whats now? Currently now HOLIDAYYYYYYYYYY. and before that, let me share you the outcome of my fear to THIS (!). Well, this was not yesterday. Its been a while, i just feel like i want to remark it here :)

Alhamdulillah, i passed my first year of medical school ♥

Sangat sangat bersyukur :)

Tuhan je lah tahu betapa takut nya time nak tear the result slip. Serious nervous gilaaaaaaa.
Well this is just a baby step to way longer-ahead road, but its not wrong to feel a bit relief kan?

Memang tak dapat dinafikan, i feel so so grateful for this. My main initial aim for last sem was JUST TO PASS this exam regardless any grade cause for me at that moment it was the PASS that matter.

But there will be times where your own thoughts scare you, right?

And this is when i hate the most where i start to question, hurmm grade ni je ke aku dapat?

When you question, why is that your grade doesnt reflect your effort or ehh aku rasa aku study lagi byk dari dia tapi asal grade dia lagi bagus?

To be frank, i did thought of this. Bahaya weh bila kau dah start fikir merewang ikut perasaan. Tetapi ingatlah wahai manusia,

".. they may seem random or unfair to you, but they have been perfectly calculated by Allah (swt)" :)

I strongly believe one of the key for great life is Always be grateful to Him even for the little things. InsyaAllah tak kan sia-sia kan rezeki first year. Its never too late to strive for better grade in second year. Lets do this babyyyyyyyyyy :)

*OKAY rasa pelik lah pulak tone writting dah mcm budak baik. HAHA. layan lah x)

For a girl who dream to live in a life no one knows.

Dari hari ke hari, niat untuk menulis disemat dalam hati. Banyak je benda nak update.

Tapi dari hari ke hari lah juga, malas itu ada. Tapi malam ni, kene juga tulis post.

Because i have this imaginary thing that i hold on too, one day in the future i want my daughter to know, so this is mummy when she's 19 when she read this blog. HAHA :D

I tend to forgot things easily and i want her to know my memories. OK intan.

so starting with FRIDAY,20th MAY.

Been involving in the planning of a homestay by Malay Cultural Society in IMU.

It was up and down fr the past month. and finally its the day. Nervous kot, takut it didnt turned out well. THANK YOU PD, SABIQ JALAL. You're the coolest. Like a boss :D

Personally, for my own experience, I LOVE IT and im gonna miss it badly.
Biasalah, saya tiada kampung. Tak pernah nak merasa benda benda cmni. Sobs ;(
There were few things that i never ever do and never even imagine do it, and I DID IT here :D

+ Mencanting batik, aku punya lah yang paling tak berseni. tulis IMU je.

+ Rubber tapping, seriusly seronok dapat try. Selalu tgk dalam tv je kan.

+ Berjalan jalan di sawah, and cam whoring yang tak menjadi :D
+ Pegang belut, and applying the 'lendir' on the face sebab abg tu kata bagus utk muka -.-.
+ And tangkap ikan keli dalam lumpur. Lumpur yang thick grey okayy.

(sarah kau kene try ni! :P)

And the most touching moment is actually staying in a kampung house, ada parents 'angkat'.
Serius, moment pertama masuk rumah tu rasa mcm OMG aku dalam drama melayu ke.

Rumah yang aku dapat 70% kayu, and everything seems so classic. And bonda aku sangat lah baik and sweet. Awww. it feel like having a grandma taking care over you which i never get to feel that. hurmm :)

Walaupun ada one unexpected accident, jeti sungai time river cruise ROBOH and most of the girls including me, fell into the river. Iphone masuk air okayyy. Cuak gila. takleh on. Jemur dalam bus, Alhamdulillah boleh on :D

Kampung Parit Penghulu, Melaka.

20th-22ng May 2011

Thank You for all the precious moments, the 'first-time' moment that even money cant buy.

For bonda and ayahanda, only God knows how much I appreciate your hospitality even its just 3 short days.

thank you :)

oh beban,Allah Maha Besar

wow.dah lama aku x post something.

so,today..aku nak post r.no one to talk to..i need to be in my comfort zone.

hmm...aku bgun pagi,rasa seronok.nak belajar *exam sgt dekat dh :(*,nk mula kehidupan baru..bt tgh2 dlm blik..aku terdgr satu suara..ckp "...." pastu aku terexcited jap..xtau lak apa yg aku dgr tu..akn buat aku sedih,marah,ralat..which is really bad for me time before exam ni.....i need my mind to focus...i need meditation..i want to share with people..but it wont help,because smua yg aku dh buat tu,irreversible...kata2 org,hnya akn buat aku menyesali perbuatan aku lgi..aku kena telan je r..aku try cri points yg boleh sedapkan hati aku..... nk cri points,buat mind aku x focus..aku rsa nk baling je lappy aku ni..aaaa :( sedihnya...hmm,points mudah to get over current misery :

"dear sarah hani,kalau ko x focus n score utk exam ni..u'll be home d whole nxt sem,sbb dh fail all pprs,n come back nxt yr,to REPEAT....so,you better watch out"

oh beban,Allah Maha Besar.oh Allah,kau tenangkan hati dan minda aku ini.

Don't Forget.

Dear SH,

Yes we had fight, distance and perhaps some misunderstanding.
Whatever on the top needs to go down for a while in life. simply to learn the needs of appreciation.

You are a gift to me, the one i treasure.

Things might change, well thats basically life is. But please note,

I'll always miss you.

" My love for you is like the wind, You cant see it, but can always feel it."

" Promise me you'll be here? Always. even when im hundred."

" How old shall i be then?"

" Ninety-nine"

" I promise."

Lots of love,

INH.

2:286

Before i start my busy day with studying, just wanna share something heart-warming i found this morning :)

Some may knows this very well.

" On no soul doth Allah Place a burden greater than it can bear. for it is (the benefit) what it has earned and upon it (the evil of) what it has wrought : Our Lord! Do not punish us if we forget or make a mistake; Our Lord! Do not lay on us a burden as Thou didst lay on those before us, Our Lord do not impose upon us that which we have not the strength to bear, and pardon us and grant us protection and have mercy on us, Thou art our Patron, so help us against the unbelieving people."

Surah Al-Baqarah ( The Cow) 2-286.

2weeks more.

STUDY WEEKS till 16th May has officially begin.

and yet im still addicted to wasting time.

study Intan. STUDYYYYYYYYYYYY.

Truly from,

Dr.Moo on your study table.

When learning is fun,

intan12345.

Okay hari ni aku nak update blog. Nak update blog. Nak update blog.

BERZAMAN GILA. To co-blogger, hai awak dah lupa ke kat blog ni? -.-

And rasa nya mcm tak perlu lagi lah nak explain kenapa tk ter-update.

Im sorry bloggie. NO you're not one of those seasonal 'social site'.

Its just that..... well any how i hope you would understand. bla bla bla.

Okay dah. currently im in my pre-exam mode. And this life gonna be for the next 3 weeks max.

3 weeks derr. And in between 3 weeks tu lah aku akn ada this study alert mode. Where ever, when ever I go. Pernah rasa tak, nak tgk tv pun fikir notes. Nak tgk movie pun mesti countdown, ehh lama lagi ke cerita ni nak habis. Nak buat apa-apa pun, mesti lah relate dgn any STUDY-related stuff. Ohh well, for future sake.

Talking bout paranoid bout study. Have you heard, the more you study the more you realised you dont know things or otherwise? Mestilah bila belajar something new in lecture, kita mesti macam nak relate dgn real life kan?

" Ohhhhh. macam tu rupanya. patut lah hari tu aku...." or " ehh no wonder lahhh!"

faham tak? FAHAM TAK? ke aku sorang je yg mcm tu. ha ha -.-

So recently its like me being so self-cautious to my environment and things that i learn.

Lagi lagi kalau bab kucing. Fine memang lah undeniable yang aku memang sangat noob nak jadi cat owner ni. Nak lagi kitten. And semester ni belajar bout microorganism. Ala benda bacteria fungi parasite semua tu lahh. So kalau rasa macam terpegang Jinxy sikit, after that mesti macam, okay lepas pegang cuci tangan. Guna handwash, nak buat complicated lagi, kau nak cuci tangan kena cuci betul betul ikut 7 steps macam belajar kat clinical session. Ahhh sudah -.-

Hah yang ni lah. So people, you can start washing hand like i do now x)

Kalau aku rasa macam Jinxy dah merayap tak tentu pasal satu rumah, then ada lah seorang penghuni rumah ni akan pegang mop dan mop lantai. And either my mum or my sis would asked in their deep sarcastic tone, ehh kakak buat tebiat ke mop lantai? HAH! Well, okay fine. Mengaku aku tkdelah termasuk dalam calon calon anak dara pilihan mak mertua, LAGI. haha.

But yeah can you just bare with my paranoid reflex of me moping the floor, coz people im saving your life form Toxoplasma Gondiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii, FYI -.-

Ohh Toxoplasma Gondii ni parasite yg common in cat as its host. zzzZZZzzzz.

This sem pun belajar pharmacology. those drugs names really kill my brain cells.

So one day we learn bout histamine and its anti drugs.

So-called fun fact; anti-histamines drug can cause sleepiness. I was bout to take my cough syrup when i read a fine description on the box written, " Bena Expectorant- Anti-histamines"

And the excitements with my roomates went off like,

Wehhh korang, bena expectorant ada anti-histamines duhh. Gilaa lahh. Patut lah rasa macam mengantuk je kan kann. Tapi kan ni first generation ke two eh?

Nak pulak dapat roomates yang brilliant and mantap gilaa, reaction dorang pun bersambung dengan tukar tukar soalan pharmaco pasal drug lain plak. OHHH NOOO. tidak, aku nak cakap pasal benda ni je -.-

Well, life as a med student. Sometimes its fun to relate new knowledge gained to everyday life.
Some of the things makes more sense now. Learning is fun, but studying for exam is just torturing :(

Praying hard for myself and the other ME210 batch mates, may HE ease our 'battle' for EOS2 :)

At times, i think being selfish is necessary as others may not sacrifice for you as you do for them.