Timun

Tahukah anda:
Side effects timun adalah;
1. Allergic rxn
2. Indigestion in certain pipel

Benefits timun;
1. Anti cancer
2. Hydration
3. Skin n hair healthy-ness


*gambar di kepilkan menunjukkn lgkh2 yg sdg diambil utk promote healthier tummy :)

It is alright :)

When you plan and get all excited about it. Please be ready for an abrupt change to it. :)
it is alright.
you dont have the rights to control the weather. At all.

#notetoself. 13oct2012

*1st time guna blogger mobile. Jakun. Hihi

osce 2012

i was online. looking through facebook last evening.
*suddenly*
"keow teow (bukan nama sebenar) wrote on UWS med page - OSCE results are out in vUWS"

i panicked. did'nt expect for it to be released tday! palpitation, my heart beat was so apparent.

i was alone in the study room,and decided to inform UWS-msia 16 bout this news..

and then, it is just me and my palpitations....

time passes by so quickly. i decided to search on "my grades" through vUWS. n when the writings are all up, revealing the results.

i got so scared, i changed the tab. talked to myself...just to make sure i am prepared. "hani, if fail..xpe.ada masa utk remediate"....

so,i hit the vUWS tab. and there were so many numbers. i did'nt understand. but came to a conclusion...

I PASSed osce 2012 =) all praise to Allah. thank you, parents too :)

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reminiscing that Wednesday.
my session was the last for the day.
all the examiners and the simulated patients are exhausted. they really look tired
the students are the ones who look so pumped up at that time
you cant blame the built up anxiety since morning.

days before osce, conflicts came to say hi. and said bye not long after.
osce was really important.conflicts should be best avoided at that time.
but with fragility of emotions and minds, so many things were revealed
heart breaks, dissatisfaction; things that happened years ago, revealed.
oh ..

i have always been very scared with osce.
due to the past Hx in 2nd yr.
comm skill n hx taking stations were the most intimidating ones.
anything  to do with  conversing
days, hours, minutes before osce.i had to console myself. to be more calm. =)

finished the 1.5hours exam.
i wanted to cry, leaving the last station
and i wasnt sure whether i was sad or
just cant believe that the rollercoaster ride of adrenaline for every 8mins,was over.
went home with a tension headache. so severe, i got really moody n went to bed straight away

that night, the msian 3rd years of UWS med, had dinner in Rashays. a stress reliever? maybe =)

post-osce syndrome:
it was so tiring,
the mind was unable to digest 8 stations..back to back.n adrenaline was pumping through out.
the mind will keep on recalling "what happened in each station" "what i should not do" "why didn't i do that?!" "will that mistake fail me?"
it keeps on repeating over n over again in you own lil mind.
tradisi apt52; we dont talk/describe any exam related issues before and after any exams.


so,alright osce 2012 is done.alhamdulillah.lets get the written paper done. n lets go home after that.

much love,
sarah.

Saturday and Sunday.

This statement needs its own blog post. A BIG achievement of mine. After 2years and few months living in Bukit Jalil,

I finally survived staying a full weekend in Vista. Indeed!

Apa? Achievement okayyyyy.
Everyone here knows i belong to,
"Intan? Wajib balik rumah time weekend punya" :P

And so, out of the blue (not so) i decided to, "Aku tak balik minggu ni."
Alright itu je motif post ni :D

Thank you AM.

Apa itu EOS5?

Ohhh my.
I miss blogging. With all my heart. Haihh. Over.
To actually sit in front of the laptop, indulge in my blogging mode is nearly imposible.

Currently I'm a victim of time.
Final EOS5 is freaking near the corner.
19th November 2012.

Kena cover 9 system.
Cardio, Respi, Gastro, Endo...zzzz
Repro, Renal, MSK, Neuro.
OSCE lagi. OSPE!
GILA kannnnnnnn. Nangis please?

Time sem 3, aku ingat lagi selalu fikir hebat gila senior boleh pass.
And now, trust me people,
THOSE WHO PASS EOS5 = AWESOME GILA!

Untuk aku lahh kan.

Ada je moment, yang aku rasa nak give up. Hopeless. Clueless. Felt like a failure.

" Tak bertarung lagi, Kau dah cakap failure. Jangan give up." -SH

" Allah tak marah kita tak pandai, tapi Allah marah kita tak belajar."

And so, i shall


KEEP CALM AND STUDY MEDICINE.

Yeay! :D

Latest update,
Yazmir the first in the circle to be engaged. And soon to be married! :D

Had last breakfast with the boys before they fly back to Brighton and Bangalore. The next time we'll see Yazmir, he is a husband to a lady.
*GASP*

Time flies.

The next time you see my post, I'll be someone wife too :)

*GASP* haha. Harapan lah.
Exam exam exam! :pp

For my twins who is born on different date,

AND SO! 4th September is always considered as one of the TARIKH KERAMAT.

Habis lah kalau lupa. Sebab,

ITS SARAH HANI'S
BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! :D

and its her 21st birthday.

Sorry Sarah this year, im literally far far farrrrrr awayyyyyyyyyyyy from you.

Aku tak mampu nak ketuk pintu rumah kau and say, SUPRISEEEEEEEEE! 

Sobs :(

By now, you should have known how i always feel about you, dont you Sarah? ;)

Need to say more? Nahhhh. too lesbo-ish.

BUT!

Biasa lah me being lame and sometimes too corny. YEAHH. 

I did a GIF for youuuuuu. hehe :P
SERIOUSLY it was.......... lame lah jugak. HA HA.

Buat pukul 1am. Guna iphone apps JE -_-

 

tak nampak last piece. ishh.

" Take care. I ♥ You"

Jauh di mata, dekat di hati.

Selalu.

The one that got away.

Yes, every soul will taste death. Its a promise we have to believe in.
A promise we have to put our ultimate faith on.
Either its unexpected, expected. Sudden,neither foresee.

I dont see it coming at all. WE dont see it AT ALL.
A few days back from 24th June,

My family was planning a surprise family gathering for my birthday.
A few days back, we were having a normal conversation.

22nd June, Friday

Papa was admitted to the emergency dept because he fell in the toilet and broke one of his rib.

24th June, 12a.m. 

Just an hour ago, i was at home. Making a home-made Tiramisu cake.
When Abang called from the hospital around 12.00am. Crying and terrified.

" Kakak.... Abang tk tahu apa jadi!! Dorang tengah de-fibrillate Papa. Cepat datang. BAWA SEMUA ORANG."

Ya Allah. Sumpah speechless.
Trying hard not to cry and stay calm, i woke Mama up and asked Nana and Kak Siti to get in the car.
Everyone was asking me what happen. Urging me to tell. But i cant. Not yet.
And, Mama cant stop crying in the car.

He revived. But the doctor said papa was critical. His heart stopped.
Dr just bagi two person at once masuk and tengok.
Machine was everywhere. Different wires were attached . He was breathing trough a respiratory machine. Sedih. Setiap orang yang masuk, mesti akan menangis bila keluar.
My sister being the closest to papa was literally menangis and meraung. She was just too weak at that moment. We had to calm her down.

It was the longest night of my life.
Sitting beside his hospital bedside, waiting for him to wake up.
Holding his cold hand, while listening to people reciting Yassin.
Perhaps that would be the longest time of my life holding his hand.
Counting every second of the ventilation machine to beep. Continue to beep and beeping.

Every second at that moment worth more than anything in the world.

I remembered how terrified i was, when the respiratory machine seems to stop functioning even for one second. One second.

7am +

Two specialist were talking to me. They gave him drugs to stabilize his blood pressure.
And suddenly, the nurse yelled,

 " Doctor! Asystole. Asystole."

Doctors and nurses rushed to his bed, pulled the curtain.
A nurse brought the oxygen tank. Another brought the defibrillator, again.
I knew this can be THAT moment.
Aku tak tahu macam mana nak describe saat ni.
Praying HARD, trying to give whatever you can offer to God, to give you just another chance.
Shaking, crying and silently praying.

" Ya Allah tolong lah. Bukan sekarang. Tapi kalau ajal papa dah sampai, Kau redha kan lah hati kami."

Ironically, as cliche as it can be.
After 10 minutes, the doctor walked out and said, " Im so sorry but we tried our best. Sent your prayers for him"

..........................................

Let the rest be in my memories.

The last time i talked to him was on Saturday. The 2nd of his admission.

"Okay papa, kakak nak balik dulu tau. Bye bye. See you tomorrow." Kissed his forehead.

He replied, while attached to the oxygen mask,
" Okay kakak jaga diri baik baik eh."

And, I never foresee that would be the last time i talked to him. The last time i saw him alive.
That was his last word to me.

InsyaAllah I will.

♥

" Allah rindu mendengar rintihan mu, kerana itu Allah memberi sedikit ujian, agar kamu ingat kepadaNya."