Imaginary family tree.

Hi. Nama penuh - Intan Nur Hadilah binti Purdiono.

Dulu masa sekolah sampai sekarang, mesti orang akan bertanya,

" Ayah awak Indonesian ke?"

Yes, he was. And so my mother.

They had migrated to Malaysia around 30 years ago. 

Way before they had me, and so my first brother.

I'm a traveler's daughter. Two married person migrated to another country that was a complete strange to them and decided to have a life here. Solo, no relatives neither other family members.

I grew up,

not knowing how does it feels to 'balik kampung' during holiday or Hari Raya.

not knowing how does it feels to call someone, 'Mak Long' or ' Pak Ngah'.

not knowing how does it feels to have a nenek that will cook whatever you are craving to eat.

But among the 'not knowing', I am so blessed with a brother, a sister, a mother and a dad ( I miss you ) indeed. Truly.

Life is beautiful in many ways depends on how you choose to see it.

And through out my life, there are countless wonderful people come into my life and be my partial family relatives. My partials aunts and uncles, and even cousins.

My mum had babysits these two girls since there were 2 months. 

They were one of my precious childhood memories.

Playing mak-mak, cikgu-cikgu, masak-masak and maybe yes, we did play kahwin-kahwin :p

Being the oldest, i remembered being the mak and these kids would be my lovely children.

Weh okay serius lawak bila fikir balik. Biasa lah zaman takde Angry Bird, Temple Run kan.

And at the age of 17 and 15, Tina and Adik still come over for sleep over.

They remind me pretty much of my sister and me.

Talking about each other friend's and we are each other fashion consultant.

" Adik, Nana nampak BOYAN tak pakai selipar ni?" haha. 

Time flies. These little girls are growing up and be a grown up ladies. 

Kalau dulu ajak main gi padang, sekarang ajak lepak Tutti Frutti lah kannnn. 

Kalau dulu ajar colour colour, sekarang ajar nak kira mass of Oxygen- Chemistry.

Padahal aku pun tak ingat mcm mana.

I thank Him for lending you people in my life. I love you sweethearts dearly. ♥

Be a person your parents would be proud of here and Life after, InsyaAllah.

Ohh and one more thing,

Nanti Kak Intan kahwin tolong jadi flower girl eh? 

Langkawi trip.

Okay merujuk kepada previous post Sarah Hani,

Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah! I passed my EOS5. Yeayyyyyyyyyyyy! :D

It felt so awesome to read the Congratulation! words on the result slip.

And so do the rest six of us. It was a great feeling knowing we can actually had our long-planned vacation with no worries :) 

Langkawi je punnnnn :p

So basically aku akan tulis pasal The girls, me and what we basically did in Langkawi.

Ala ala tajuk post, Tips to Langkawi. Konon.

First day | Tuesday 4th December.

Reached Langkawi airport late in the evening. Maybe around 5pm something.
We rent an Avanza. RM150/day. Worry not for any last minute plan, sebab dekat airport tu itself memang banyak kereta sewa booth and all. Just the matter of mahal ke tak lah.

Check in to Landcons Hotel. Bagi aku Landcons ni okay sangat utk mereka yang takdelah mencari sangat kemewahan dalam accomodation,with a reasonable price, dengan erti kata lain tidur okay toilet okay - settle lah. and plus its a walking distance to Chenang beach :D

Had our first dinner at Haji Ramli since its one of the korang-kena-makan-kat-sini suggestion.
Personal review, sedap lah worth the money even though aku rasa dia mahal sikit compared than the standard price. Next, shopping for tomorrow island hoping and beach day! :D
Oh well, biasa lah perempuan. Dengan beach hat nya, pario nya. Alasan "Langkawi panas okay." relevant nya kenapa kena ada beach hat.

       

Day two | Wednesday 5th December.

Island Hoping day! :D RM25/person is one of standard price.
Basically akan cover boat trip to Pulau Dayang Bunting -> Pulau Singa Besar -> Pulau Beras basah.

Seperti mitos yang diperkatakan, kalau nak subur mandi lah kat sini. Tapi itu mitos lah kan. Common sense nya, you know what to do.  La la la.
Recomended kena pakai life jacket yang disewa. Pit-stop one hour.

Pulau Singa Besar actually pit-stop utk tengok eagle feeding. Takde lah apa-apa sangat sebab akan duduk dalam bot je and tengok eagle tu catch makanan yang dicampak abg bot. Sebab umur pun dah 20-an so takdelah macam nak Omg helang sangat kannnnnnnn.

Okay next, Pulau Beras Basah. Pit-stop ni hang pi mandi-mandi pantai. The sand was super soft, lembut bak pasir dalam hourglass tu. Okay ni baru macam excited sikit :p

Ni macam bujet snow lah kan. Bila fikir balik, takde motif jugak. haha.

Petang tu kteorg main banana boat dekat Pantai Chenang. RM10/person.

Jatuh dua kali. Kteorg begging kat abang tu, Nak jatuh kat tempat cetek PLEASEEEEEEEEEEE.

Okay fine, first jatuh tu. TAK CETEK pun. Aku as someone yang paranoid air and lemas, lagi lah bertambah paranoid. How could youuuuu.

Oleh sebab aku hilang keyakinan dekat tahap 'cetek' abang bot tu, aku je yang tak jatuh dari banana boat sebab hold on too tight. Lepas beberapa saat aku tgk belakang baru sedar semua orang dah jatuh. FAIL. Lepas tu kau bujet konon nak parasailing. 

Ohh Pleaseeeeeee -_-

Third day | Thursday 6th December

Chocolate shopping day! First pit-stop Kedai Haji Ismail, sebab based on short survey its one of the cheapest you can get around there. Despite mungkin murah sepuluh sen. Worth. Apa lah makna nya balik dari Langkawi kalau tak pulang berbekal kan Daim, kan?

Suggestion: Shopping lah chocolate time last day or nak dekat balik if hotel takde fridge, or end up some of them actually cair :(

Datarn Lang. 

Aktiviti : Camwhore di tengah panas berlumur kan sunblock. Tegar. 

Salam perantaaun 2013.

Terima kasih JPA.

Chenang beach

 Tiba-tiba a guy ni datang dekat kteorg,
" Hey i like your hats. Mine is small. Yours is big. Take a picture! " 

Sampai sekarang tak sure tu perli ke puji.

Friendship rings.
No, we are never too old for that :p

Fourth day | Friday 6th December.

Went for the cable car. Surprisingly, the fear of height had been overshadow by the fear of water.
Ke di-overshadow dengan panggilan tunang? malam semalam. Tettttttttttt.
Yang lain muka nervous je dalam tu. Alalalarh comel je.

Next, Gamat House and Pantai Pasir Hitam. Lepas tu BALIK! :(

Pegang tangan takut jatuh nanti :p

♥

So thats the end of the our Langkawi wrap-up.

Lepas ni sorang-sorang fly pergi tempat yang lain. Sobs.

Euro tour, next. Maybe? :D 

InsyaAllah. kalau ada rezeki, we will surely meet each other again. 

Untill then ....

Lots of love,

your Intan Nur Hadilah .

" Nothing makes the earth seems spacious as to have friends at a distance, they make the latitudes and longitudes."

I'll love you for a thousand more.

intan nur hadilah

Terasa macam nak cerita.
Siapa lah tak tahu, Sarah Hani & Intan Nur Hadilah, the always-together twins in high school.
Memang tak dapat dinafikan, pergi mana-mana pun mesti berdua.
Sampai masuk college, takdir memisahkan kita. sobs.

But still nothing change as much back then in college.
We still texted each other like most of the time, shared even the slightest details of our life.
Plus minus, bila ada masing-masing start ada boyfriend time tu. Biasa lah conflict kawan baik, bila attention di-deviate kepada orang lain. Gaduh macam suami isteri. Comel nya kita sarahhhhhhhhhhhhhh? haha :P
Ohh well itu DULU.

Back in my 'belasan' tahun, i believe we all have this ideology of, BEST FRIENDS FOREVER.
We believe that nothing's gonna change, and no matter how old we are, best friends will always be happy together.

Well, its still not wrong to believe that.

Sambung balik cerita.
And untill the day Sarah finally flew of to Sydney. One of the saddest phase of my life.
To be separated away from my 'other-half'.

us.

First few month was hard. Time tu smart phone tkdelah common sangat.
Whatsapp, Viber bagai tu, kira the most new thing in town.
So we spent quite lots of money, on international calls and text.
We promise each other to try hard to keep our friendship as strong as we used to, no matter what.

But times goes by. Masing-masing semakin busy dengan life budak medic yang tak tentu busy nya ni.
And plus the time difference yang buat susah untuk kteorg 'parallel' kan free time.
Even though when we already connected to the most fastest and convenience communication ever.
Whatsapp, Viber, Skype, Twitter etc.
The text and call slowly 'dissapear'. The ritual update become less and lesser.
And we feel even far than we already are.

Honestly, banyak isu tak puas hati manja yang timbul dalam fasa ni.
Isu cemburu
Isu 'kenapa aku je yang selalu nak kena tegur kau dulu",
Isu " fine lah dia lagi penting dari aku now."

Haha.
Hot and cold, Dark and bright. Happy and sad. All in one.


Untill,

I learnt the meaning of loving someone not for the sake of dunya, only.
I search for the real meaning of it. And i finally came cross to an article, which change the whole perception of our friendship to me. Im not good in explaining these things. But do read it if you want :)

Things will definitely change. What matter is how you handle it.

Yes there are things in life where we imagine and dream of how life would be.
And we try our very best to make it true. Tapi akhirnya kita hanya manusia biasa.
So we have to believe on a power beyond our ability to make the rest as beautiful as it might be.

Sarah Hani is not 'mine'. She is a gift borrowed by Him for me. So does, this friendship.
If we cant even keep up with the most fastest net in the world, I shall put my heart and trust in Him to make this friendship goes fonder each day even without the 'how are you' texts.
And whenever i miss her, i'll pray that she can feel it too. hihi :')

All praised to Him, all those unnecessary emotional tense and burden on us, is slowly being understood and accepted with love ♥ :)

She is still my dearest person, and will always be. InsyaAllah.
I love you Sarah Hani, for the sake of Him
:)


Oh my, panjang gila post ni :p

kak Diana Rizal :)

intan nur hadilah




Dear Kak Dee, the only person on planet Earth who will call me Jewels.

How time flies, you had finally graduated from IMU and flying off too Scotland next Tuesday.
Congratulation my dear, you deserve every single of it :)

I'm not sure how we can be this close.
I cant remember how we started, but I can surely remember the wonderful feeling of having you around.
And I know for sure I'll be missing you, BIG TIME :(

Akan,

Rindu jumpa kak Dee around IMU with your purple bag.
Rindu kacau kak Dee dekat library.
Rindu borak dengan kak Dee.
Rindu nak mengada-ngada.

You are like a big sister to me, and of course to our other dear friend too, you know who.
A 'consultant' for us too, perhaps? :p Being there, for the up and down.
I can randomly tell you everything and anything, you'll be one of the person i look for if i need some personal opinion whenever I'm lost.
And your response always make me go,

"OMG, kak dee sangat memahamiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii! "

I shall thank HIM, for a sister named Diana Rizal. For this lovely friendship. Alhamdulillah.

Take care in Scotland. May Allah ease you life over there.
And balik nanti intan nak souvenir okay? :DD

Uhibbukifillah ♥


P.s: Please dont make me cry. Thank you for writing this :')

Mama, Mummy, Ibu, Ummi?

intan nur hadilah

Tahu tak time sekolah rendah dulu kalau time perhimpunan or time kena kumpul dalam dewan sekolah, akan ada time yang bosan. Time tu takde gadget nak main game ke apa. So kteorg akan main game sendiri, conteng belakang kawan guna jari and suruh dia teka huruf apa. Yang paling comel, kteorg akan kumpul nama-nama comel yang possible nak dijadikan nama anak nanti.

Tapi yang tu macam sampai sekrang je still main lagi. haha :D

Aku tak sure lah about the guys, but im pretty sure bout the ladies. When you're up to your teen and the twenty's and meet adorable babies (as every baby is), mesti reaction akan macam...

" Awwwwww, comel gila.."

Pastu akan lambai kt baby tu sambil cakap, " Byeeee :D " If ada yang extreme sikit, sanggup jalan kat budak tu and akan cubit pipi dia sebab tak tahan sangat. Kannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn? :p

Come on, how can you resist THIS? ;)

As a women who carries the gene of XX, one of the natural greatest gift is to be a mother.

To love a human being more than your own life.

And im pretty sure (again) too that most of my girl friends that i know currently, are so excited and eagerly for those moment. Alalarhh aku tahu :p

Awwwww .

And so, i was thinking.. If we are so excited about having our own kids and family, ohh well same goes to our parents back then. Dont you think? Im sure that our mothers went to the same phase, where they are so excited of having their own children, which indirectly turn out to be you and me.

" Takde harta yang lagi berharga untuk mama sekarang, melainkan kamu tiga orang."

I heard this before, indeed several time in my life. But perhaps, i cant yet relate the significance of those words to my life back then. As i grow older and what i want in the future seems more clearer now, those words finally make sense. A LOT.

" A human body can bear only up to 45 del (unit) of pain. yet at time of giving birth, a mother feels up to 57 del 9unit) of pain. this is similar to 20 bones getting fractured at a time."

Can you imagine it now, the mother's pain and love?

And that is only the pain they went trough while giving birth. What about the pain through out raising us up until we become a 'human' until now?

As we are getting older, and so do our mothers.What they really want in their senior ages now is our attentions. Not the money.. And even when they are no longer alive in this world, one of the way that you can contribute for them is through your prayers.


Sebenarnya tak tahu pun motif sebenarnya nak tulis post ni. Just terasa macam nak tulis.

Mama selalu end our phone call with, " Okayy.. Love you." and how would my life would be one day, if i cant never EVER hear that again?


Awak, dah tanya khabar mak awak for today belum? :)

Insignificantly Significant Dad.

intan12345

16th June; a special day dedicated to the fathers. A Happy Father Day.

And talking bout father, hurmmm.. To be honest, for me all this may not be as significant as how i would talk bout my mother. I may not have the best dad in the world like most of them would call their dad are.

Maybe he didn't really know whats my grades were for my exam.
Maybe he didn't wish my birthday every year.
Maybe he didn't asked or call asking me how was my day.
Maybe we dont talk that much.
Maybe sometimes i cant accept his habit of spending too much money on gadget.
Or maybe sometimes he was not there to decide for me for any life decision making i have to made.

One day, a friend told me something that  make me think deep,

Dulu aku selalu sabar je lah dengan apa yg jadi dalam hidup aku. Sabar sabar sabar. Tapi kita manusia biasa, satu masa kita akan reach jugak level maximum sabar tu. We are normal human being. But my mum told me, cuba instead of bersabar je, kita bersyukur. Bersyukur and look those things that make you feel down in another way round.

You might not see this in the way i see it, but its really changes the way i see things.

Papa may not be there for me every single time or knows everything things that are  happening in my life. But I remember how he use to,

Teach me how to ride my bicycle without the training wheels when I was small.

Sent me back and fetch me from Shah Alam every weekend.

Even sent me to Vista early in Monday morning and deal with all those traffic jam just because i dont prefer going back too early on Sunday night.

How he used to joke around, indeed he's a funny guy behind that silent personality.

How he used to buy whatever we want just because mama wont let us. He would say yes to everything.

Perhaps maybe i dont have the best dad in the world, or the best dad anyone could ever have.

But i would thank HIM for the chance in life of living with a guy that i call as my father.

Perhaps i dont deserve one. Asking yourself, "Are you a good daughter at the first place?"

Living yourself in regret and frustration is such a waste. Hate the sin not the sinner.

Papa, for whatever it is, i would always love you. And please dont stop loving me.

Happy Fathers Day ♥