osce 2012

i was online. looking through facebook last evening.
*suddenly*
"keow teow (bukan nama sebenar) wrote on UWS med page - OSCE results are out in vUWS"

i panicked. did'nt expect for it to be released tday! palpitation, my heart beat was so apparent.

i was alone in the study room,and decided to inform UWS-msia 16 bout this news..

and then, it is just me and my palpitations....

time passes by so quickly. i decided to search on "my grades" through vUWS. n when the writings are all up, revealing the results.

i got so scared, i changed the tab. talked to myself...just to make sure i am prepared. "hani, if fail..xpe.ada masa utk remediate"....

so,i hit the vUWS tab. and there were so many numbers. i did'nt understand. but came to a conclusion...

I PASSed osce 2012 =) all praise to Allah. thank you, parents too :)

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reminiscing that Wednesday.
my session was the last for the day.
all the examiners and the simulated patients are exhausted. they really look tired
the students are the ones who look so pumped up at that time
you cant blame the built up anxiety since morning.

days before osce, conflicts came to say hi. and said bye not long after.
osce was really important.conflicts should be best avoided at that time.
but with fragility of emotions and minds, so many things were revealed
heart breaks, dissatisfaction; things that happened years ago, revealed.
oh ..

i have always been very scared with osce.
due to the past Hx in 2nd yr.
comm skill n hx taking stations were the most intimidating ones.
anything  to do with  conversing
days, hours, minutes before osce.i had to console myself. to be more calm. =)

finished the 1.5hours exam.
i wanted to cry, leaving the last station
and i wasnt sure whether i was sad or
just cant believe that the rollercoaster ride of adrenaline for every 8mins,was over.
went home with a tension headache. so severe, i got really moody n went to bed straight away

that night, the msian 3rd years of UWS med, had dinner in Rashays. a stress reliever? maybe =)

post-osce syndrome:
it was so tiring,
the mind was unable to digest 8 stations..back to back.n adrenaline was pumping through out.
the mind will keep on recalling "what happened in each station" "what i should not do" "why didn't i do that?!" "will that mistake fail me?"
it keeps on repeating over n over again in you own lil mind.
tradisi apt52; we dont talk/describe any exam related issues before and after any exams.


so,alright osce 2012 is done.alhamdulillah.lets get the written paper done. n lets go home after that.

much love,
sarah.