i called but i didn't wish :)

today is the 25th of june 2012. siapa yang kenal intan nur hadilah (or plg busuk pun, kwn thru her fb....), u'll know it is a special date (cz u might get a notification in ur fb home page). if i am back in Malaysia, i will get something done (cikai2 pun,at least roti canai sekeping :D) .. but it has not been me who celebrated this wonderful day with her for this past 3yrs - tahniah lerr M.... haha.

due to what happened yesterday,24th of june (i'll leave it to intan to MAYBE blog about it anytime later). there is d dilemma of appropriation to celebrate the event today. the whole day, i was thinking how to make celebrate in a subtle way. not to extravaganza (not that i can make it the best day of her life being thousand of kilometres apart tho =='), but just to respect what happened yesterday.

i know intan nur hadilah for approx 7yrs. i dont know her,inside out.but i at least should know (read: expected to know) how she wants today to turn out to be. before yesterday, i can honestly imagine what she wants, d dinner for two, a surprise visit from me (eh? haha)..
but for 25th of june 2012, i dont. we have never encounter such scenario like this before. never talked about it. never thought that such events in life will happen anytime soon. but janji Allah itu sempurna, it will happen when it is the time. 


on the other hand, being 21 is once in a life time moment. you can't TURN 21 over n over again, or choose to turn 21 maybe in the next yr or two. it doesnt work like that. so, i will grab this time spent to blog about your BIRTHDAY intan nur hadilah :)

first and foremost,

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY

(saywhatteveryouwant,youarestillmyperson)

last year, i gave you a birthday video. this year, could but didn't (sorry) make it in time to make something big for you. n obviously i cant buy a flight ticket to KUL because i have classes as usual :) the aim to celebrate our birthdays together (to cover up on d last 3 yrs of ur birthdays that i missed, n vice versa too!) at ampang lookout point will always be looked forward too (i dont know when that will happen,but i hope it will happen sometime :D)

a birthday must always come with wishes truely from the heart.....so here it goes babe.haha
1. may Allah bless your steps taken (n will be taking) to be a better person, in every aspect in life.
2. may you be granted success in exams, n future n life hereafter.
3. strength and courage to go through negative emotions.
4. alot of $$$ (so that we can go holiday together! haha)
5. the guy that is really meant for you,with qualities of a good husband :D
6. may you have good memory capacity to always remember me ;)

alright intan, being 21 is not like being 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12,13,14,15,16,17,18,19,20...
more life challenges will come and pay a visit to you. more dramas will happen. more dreams will be created. all the best, kawan baik :)

iloveyou as much as you do.maybe more.haha.

sarah hani signing out.

issues

a cold winter evening in Sydney :)

alone in my room. feels like blogging about something.but topics that come through my mind are all about studies..whaaaaa o.o i just dont hav interesting topics to blog about.bukan mcm si intan tu,ada je bnda yg dia nk tulis.haha. p/s: thanks for d previous post :')

currently, life di sini x seronok pun. byk kli aku try bygkn either intn dtg belajar sini thun dpn, or aku di malaysia anytime soon. life now is too routine. pagi2 bersiap ke hospital for a dreadful whole morning ward rounds (serious bosan). **imisssurgerytermsobadly* '

kawan lama...kau dah berputus hubungan dgn gadis itu ke?

holding on.in a very tough way.

terasa nak makan char keow teow ada kerang and udang besar.


sudah lah.bye

I'll love you for a thousand more.

intan nur hadilah

Terasa macam nak cerita.
Siapa lah tak tahu, Sarah Hani & Intan Nur Hadilah, the always-together twins in high school.
Memang tak dapat dinafikan, pergi mana-mana pun mesti berdua.
Sampai masuk college, takdir memisahkan kita. sobs.

But still nothing change as much back then in college.
We still texted each other like most of the time, shared even the slightest details of our life.
Plus minus, bila ada masing-masing start ada boyfriend time tu. Biasa lah conflict kawan baik, bila attention di-deviate kepada orang lain. Gaduh macam suami isteri. Comel nya kita sarahhhhhhhhhhhhhh? haha :P
Ohh well itu DULU.

Back in my 'belasan' tahun, i believe we all have this ideology of, BEST FRIENDS FOREVER.
We believe that nothing's gonna change, and no matter how old we are, best friends will always be happy together.

Well, its still not wrong to believe that.

Sambung balik cerita.
And untill the day Sarah finally flew of to Sydney. One of the saddest phase of my life.
To be separated away from my 'other-half'.

us.

First few month was hard. Time tu smart phone tkdelah common sangat.
Whatsapp, Viber bagai tu, kira the most new thing in town.
So we spent quite lots of money, on international calls and text.
We promise each other to try hard to keep our friendship as strong as we used to, no matter what.

But times goes by. Masing-masing semakin busy dengan life budak medic yang tak tentu busy nya ni.
And plus the time difference yang buat susah untuk kteorg 'parallel' kan free time.
Even though when we already connected to the most fastest and convenience communication ever.
Whatsapp, Viber, Skype, Twitter etc.
The text and call slowly 'dissapear'. The ritual update become less and lesser.
And we feel even far than we already are.

Honestly, banyak isu tak puas hati manja yang timbul dalam fasa ni.
Isu cemburu
Isu 'kenapa aku je yang selalu nak kena tegur kau dulu",
Isu " fine lah dia lagi penting dari aku now."

Haha.
Hot and cold, Dark and bright. Happy and sad. All in one.


Untill,

I learnt the meaning of loving someone not for the sake of dunya, only.
I search for the real meaning of it. And i finally came cross to an article, which change the whole perception of our friendship to me. Im not good in explaining these things. But do read it if you want :)

Things will definitely change. What matter is how you handle it.

Yes there are things in life where we imagine and dream of how life would be.
And we try our very best to make it true. Tapi akhirnya kita hanya manusia biasa.
So we have to believe on a power beyond our ability to make the rest as beautiful as it might be.

Sarah Hani is not 'mine'. She is a gift borrowed by Him for me. So does, this friendship.
If we cant even keep up with the most fastest net in the world, I shall put my heart and trust in Him to make this friendship goes fonder each day even without the 'how are you' texts.
And whenever i miss her, i'll pray that she can feel it too. hihi :')

All praised to Him, all those unnecessary emotional tense and burden on us, is slowly being understood and accepted with love ♥ :)

She is still my dearest person, and will always be. InsyaAllah.
I love you Sarah Hani, for the sake of Him
:)


Oh my, panjang gila post ni :p