During a boring lecture

Anyone who reads this blog? No one.? Yea. I thot so.

I am bored. This 1.5hours lecture is so boring. Why does the SoM keeps on calling d same type of people to talk about the almost same type of topic?!

Okay. I got a discussion session now bye.

Pimple curse.

intan nur hadilah.

At the age of (going to be) 22, people surrounds me know it well of how pimple and me are very close related.
Of how those P-thingy would affect my life every 'period of the month'.

I would have one, and by this, its not the normal-what-is-there-to-fuss-about pimple.
BUT,

its the i-can-spot-it-from-miles-away pimple with addition of i-shall-haunt-you-for-the-post acne scar for month or even worst God knows how long.

Its hormonal, and i am so immune with it.
Eventhough i get a lil 'depress' at times.
Tak tipu. ha-ha.

Kak Fay, the pharmacist where i work now
-- That's good. Its means you still young.

Ye lah tu.

And Azri come out with this,

" Jangan tegur pimple orang, nanti dapat kat kita."

So one day, after my day-off of the week, coming back to work. Instead of saying,
" Hi we miss you!" --

Kak Fay looked me in the face and said,

" Hey you got a new pimple."

And i was like, " Oh god, NO YOU DID NOT SAID THAT!"
Sambil cepat cepat amik cermin and fikir weh obvious sgt ke, walaupun fakta nya dah lama pun tahu.

The next day,

She came to work with a quiet a huge pimple on her nose. And complaint of how self-concious she is at the moment.

-

Hahahaha.
tu lah orang dah kata. Its a curse.
Its my 'curse' :p

For now...

Super Memes.

If intan is talking about her life. Here n there.
I am stuck with my preparation for upcoming osce.

MH012013. That represents the four malaysian troopers who are going to battle it out next friday.

Just another letter.

intan nur hadilah

There’s an amazing thing about broken hearts. 
When you don’t get what you want, you discover a need.
When you discover a need, you begin to ask.
When a request is unfulfilled, you keep asking.

Sometimes He doesn’t give you what you ask for when He wants to give you something more.
Sometimes He doesn’t give you right away because He knows there’s something better. Or so you can keep asking. Because it is in the process of begging, the process of crying to Allah, that you are elevated and brought nearer.

It is in the process of asking that you are brought to the foot of His throne.
It is your need and helplessness that drove you to His throne. He deprives to give.

-  Yasmin Mogahed

Helplessness.

Mungkin mereka tak tahu atau tak perlu tahu.
Kadang-kadang aku penat. Letih. Bosan.
Kenapa perlu wujud masalah semua ni? Sampai bila nak selesai?
Tersepit di tengah-tengah.
Di sini berkata begini, di sana berkata begitu.
Ditelan mata mak, diluah mati bapak.
Takpe, masuk telinga kanan keluar telinga kiri.

"Bersangka baik, bersangka baik, bersangka baik." 
Benda yang aku selalu ingat kan hati -- setakat yang mampu.

Maintain.
Sebab aku selalu tahu, aku belajar banyak benda.
Nilai hidup yang Tuhan bagi sebagai ganti.
Yang cikgu atau lecturer kat sekolah tak boleh ajar.

Alhamdulillah even for the bad. As hard as it is to believe, it can be so much worse.

the third one.
" Because it is in the process of begging, the process of crying to Allah, that you are elevated and brought nearer."

Jangan berhenti berharap.
Tapi apa-apa pun,yang aku tahu dapat gaji bulan ni, 31st March aku NAK Baskin Robbin.
Okay tidur.

Imaginary family tree.

Hi. Nama penuh - Intan Nur Hadilah binti Purdiono.

Dulu masa sekolah sampai sekarang, mesti orang akan bertanya,

" Ayah awak Indonesian ke?"

Yes, he was. And so my mother.

They had migrated to Malaysia around 30 years ago. 

Way before they had me, and so my first brother.

I'm a traveler's daughter. Two married person migrated to another country that was a complete strange to them and decided to have a life here. Solo, no relatives neither other family members.

I grew up,

not knowing how does it feels to 'balik kampung' during holiday or Hari Raya.

not knowing how does it feels to call someone, 'Mak Long' or ' Pak Ngah'.

not knowing how does it feels to have a nenek that will cook whatever you are craving to eat.

But among the 'not knowing', I am so blessed with a brother, a sister, a mother and a dad ( I miss you ) indeed. Truly.

Life is beautiful in many ways depends on how you choose to see it.

And through out my life, there are countless wonderful people come into my life and be my partial family relatives. My partials aunts and uncles, and even cousins.

My mum had babysits these two girls since there were 2 months. 

They were one of my precious childhood memories.

Playing mak-mak, cikgu-cikgu, masak-masak and maybe yes, we did play kahwin-kahwin :p

Being the oldest, i remembered being the mak and these kids would be my lovely children.

Weh okay serius lawak bila fikir balik. Biasa lah zaman takde Angry Bird, Temple Run kan.

And at the age of 17 and 15, Tina and Adik still come over for sleep over.

They remind me pretty much of my sister and me.

Talking about each other friend's and we are each other fashion consultant.

" Adik, Nana nampak BOYAN tak pakai selipar ni?" haha. 

Time flies. These little girls are growing up and be a grown up ladies. 

Kalau dulu ajak main gi padang, sekarang ajak lepak Tutti Frutti lah kannnn. 

Kalau dulu ajar colour colour, sekarang ajar nak kira mass of Oxygen- Chemistry.

Padahal aku pun tak ingat mcm mana.

I thank Him for lending you people in my life. I love you sweethearts dearly. ♥

Be a person your parents would be proud of here and Life after, InsyaAllah.

Ohh and one more thing,

Nanti Kak Intan kahwin tolong jadi flower girl eh? 

Psych rotation #1

Personality disorders;
1. Cluster A-odd and eccentric
- paranoid
- schizoid
- schizotypal
2. Cluster B- dramatic, emotional and erratic
- antisocial
- histrionic
- borderline
- narcisstic
3. Cluster C -anxious and fearful
- OCD
- avoidant
- dependant

Tahu klasifikasi itu dahulu.
Cukup.

L i f e 🌟

intan nur hadilah

“Setiap orang,
Akan ada sesuatu yang dia simpan.
Akan ada sesetengah perkara yang dia sembunyikan.

Dan ada sesetengah perkara yang ingin dia kongsikan.

Siapa pun dia,
Segembira mana pun dia.
Walau sekerap mana kamu melihat dia tersenyum,
Pasti ada perkara-perkara yang pernah membuat dia terluka.


Pasti ada sesuatu yang pernah menguris hatinya,
Pasti ada sesuatu yang pernah membuat dia menangis.

Pasti ada.
Kerana dia juga manusia.

Makanya,
Bila kamu menyangka bahawa hanya kamu yang merasa,

Hanya kamu yang melalui,

Dan hanya kamu yang mengerti,

Kamu silap, dan kamu salah.

Ada orang lain yang pernah melaluinya,
Bahkan ada orang lain yang pernah merasakan lebih dari apa yang kamu rasakan.

Ada orang lain yang pernah melalui lebih teruk dari apa yang pernah kamu lalui.
Ada.

Cuma, mungkin kamu yang tak pernah tahu,
Kamu yang tak pernah nampak.
Jangan selalu menganggap,

Bahawa kamulah yang paling susah, 
paling sakit diuji,

Paling berat diduga.

Ada.

Ada insan lain, yang lebih besar ujiannya, yang lebih berat penderitaannya.
Sudahlah, kesat air matamu,


Walau serumit mana situasi kamu.
 Pujuk hatimu.
Yakinlah DIA ada, dan akan selalu ada.
Bila kamu menyandar harapan padaNYA, DIA tak akan sekali-sekali mempersia harapan kamu.


Bila kamu mempercayai segala takdir dan ketentuanNYA,
DIA tak akan sekali-sekali mengkhinati kepercayaan kamu.”

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2012, you had been a year filled with every emotions, every colours that exist in this universe.
And no matter what, I am very thankful for every single of it because i believe each up and down comes with wonderful blessing, indeed :)

Alhamdulillah.
2013, please be awesome too!
pleaseeee pleaseeee pweaseeee.
:)