I'll love you for a thousand more.

intan nur hadilah

Terasa macam nak cerita.
Siapa lah tak tahu, Sarah Hani & Intan Nur Hadilah, the always-together twins in high school.
Memang tak dapat dinafikan, pergi mana-mana pun mesti berdua.
Sampai masuk college, takdir memisahkan kita. sobs.

But still nothing change as much back then in college.
We still texted each other like most of the time, shared even the slightest details of our life.
Plus minus, bila ada masing-masing start ada boyfriend time tu. Biasa lah conflict kawan baik, bila attention di-deviate kepada orang lain. Gaduh macam suami isteri. Comel nya kita sarahhhhhhhhhhhhhh? haha :P
Ohh well itu DULU.

Back in my 'belasan' tahun, i believe we all have this ideology of, BEST FRIENDS FOREVER.
We believe that nothing's gonna change, and no matter how old we are, best friends will always be happy together.

Well, its still not wrong to believe that.

Sambung balik cerita.
And untill the day Sarah finally flew of to Sydney. One of the saddest phase of my life.
To be separated away from my 'other-half'.

us.

First few month was hard. Time tu smart phone tkdelah common sangat.
Whatsapp, Viber bagai tu, kira the most new thing in town.
So we spent quite lots of money, on international calls and text.
We promise each other to try hard to keep our friendship as strong as we used to, no matter what.

But times goes by. Masing-masing semakin busy dengan life budak medic yang tak tentu busy nya ni.
And plus the time difference yang buat susah untuk kteorg 'parallel' kan free time.
Even though when we already connected to the most fastest and convenience communication ever.
Whatsapp, Viber, Skype, Twitter etc.
The text and call slowly 'dissapear'. The ritual update become less and lesser.
And we feel even far than we already are.

Honestly, banyak isu tak puas hati manja yang timbul dalam fasa ni.
Isu cemburu
Isu 'kenapa aku je yang selalu nak kena tegur kau dulu",
Isu " fine lah dia lagi penting dari aku now."

Haha.
Hot and cold, Dark and bright. Happy and sad. All in one.


Untill,

I learnt the meaning of loving someone not for the sake of dunya, only.
I search for the real meaning of it. And i finally came cross to an article, which change the whole perception of our friendship to me. Im not good in explaining these things. But do read it if you want :)

Things will definitely change. What matter is how you handle it.

Yes there are things in life where we imagine and dream of how life would be.
And we try our very best to make it true. Tapi akhirnya kita hanya manusia biasa.
So we have to believe on a power beyond our ability to make the rest as beautiful as it might be.

Sarah Hani is not 'mine'. She is a gift borrowed by Him for me. So does, this friendship.
If we cant even keep up with the most fastest net in the world, I shall put my heart and trust in Him to make this friendship goes fonder each day even without the 'how are you' texts.
And whenever i miss her, i'll pray that she can feel it too. hihi :')

All praised to Him, all those unnecessary emotional tense and burden on us, is slowly being understood and accepted with love ♥ :)

She is still my dearest person, and will always be. InsyaAllah.
I love you Sarah Hani, for the sake of Him
:)


Oh my, panjang gila post ni :p