of 21 and weddings.

Hidup ni akan lalui banyak fasa. Dari awak kanak-kanak sampai lah remaja, lepas tu dewasa.
Fasa pandai berjalan, fasa first day of school, first day of period, fasa first relationship, fasa hati berkecai dan macam-macam lagi.
And so, salah satu fasa significant dalam hidup aku dan Sarah Hani is bermula nya

FASA pergi wedding kawan sendiri.

Bila umur dah jejak 20-an, aku rasa fasa ni akan menjadi satu fasa normal.

Last few days, we had been to two wedding of our dear classmates of 5Alpha. 2 wedding in the same week.

Yazmir as the first ever wedding of ours and Faiqah being the second one.

Yazmir & Dinie

Apa yang menakjubkan sangat pasal phase ni smpai korang dua nak significant ni?  

Kalau dulu,

• ikut mak pergi wedding, just pergi untuk makan makan lepas tu habis makan, sibuk dah " Mamaaa, jom lah balikkkkkk". Lepas tu mama mesti macam, " Sabar lahhh nak jumpa kwn mama tu jap." 

•  Dulu aku tak faham kenapa mak cik-makcik yang datang wedding tu sibuk sangat nak tengok  bilik pengantin. Aku tak suka sebab nak kena bukak kasut lah bagai.

• Tak payah nak effort sangat untuk bersosial dengan orang lain, senyum senyum. Sorok belakang mama. Kalau mama introduce kawan dia, salam je lah, senyum. Okay dah

•  Takpayah nak sibuk fikir nak beli hadiah apa untuk wedding.

•  Just grab je any baju kurung ke apa yang sesuai lahh.

Faiqah &Afiq

Tapi sekarang wedding kawan sendiri,

Datang, makan. Time makan duduk dengan sarah, mata akan in the same time akan scan surrounding. In slow voice, " Weh kau nampak sesapa yang kita kenal lagi tak?" Hah part ni akan ada dua option, Kalau orang yang discan tu macam rasa nak tegur, aim lah lepas habis makan. Kalau rasa macam awkward, AVOID EYE CONTACT. Roger? haha

Haruslah bersosial. This is the good time to meet old friends yang dah lama gila tak jumpa. Update pasal life mereka dan anda. Taking pictures. 

And tanya soalan cliche, " Hah kau lahhh kan lepas ni." Reaction paling comel and common, soalan ni akan dijawab dengan gelak, denial and pass dekat kawan kau yang lain. Fasa soalan, " Berapa anak dah sekarang?" mungkin tak sampai lagi. Sabar naa.

Maybe few days before tu berpakat dengan rakan yang lain utk beli hadiah apa. Brainstorm possible hadiah yang sesuai. And of course, akan fikir nak pakai baju apa dua tiga hari sebelum wedding tu. You want to look good at your friend's wedding dont you? :p

But among all those points, there is something that will indirectly knocks you. Bak kata Sarah, Reality check-in. We will starts to think of our future more seriously in a bigger perspective, i think. Start to figure out where is your life leading you currently. Bukan nak kata macam its the end of the fun time. No, definitely!

Cuma macam bila kawan kau dah menjadi someone's husband/wife, that the beginning of a higher level of life for them. And so, random thoughts macam,

What does it takes to finally decided to have a married life at your current age?

Are you ready? Or are you not? Or are you even on your way to prepare yourself ?

Something like that lah :p

To get married at any age, depends on personal view and mentality. 

There will be no right or wrong, win or lose arguement in this case :)

To Yazmir and Faiqah, 

Congratulation! :D

 Enjoy the journey of finally having a lifetime partner, a soul-mate in your life. It was such an honor to be there on your big, special day. May Allah bless your marriage with happiness dunya and akhirah. Barakallahuma ♥

p.s: Waiting for your cute babies! :p

Langkawi trip.

Okay merujuk kepada previous post Sarah Hani,

Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah! I passed my EOS5. Yeayyyyyyyyyyyy! :D

It felt so awesome to read the Congratulation! words on the result slip.

And so do the rest six of us. It was a great feeling knowing we can actually had our long-planned vacation with no worries :) 

Langkawi je punnnnn :p

So basically aku akan tulis pasal The girls, me and what we basically did in Langkawi.

Ala ala tajuk post, Tips to Langkawi. Konon.

First day | Tuesday 4th December.

Reached Langkawi airport late in the evening. Maybe around 5pm something.
We rent an Avanza. RM150/day. Worry not for any last minute plan, sebab dekat airport tu itself memang banyak kereta sewa booth and all. Just the matter of mahal ke tak lah.

Check in to Landcons Hotel. Bagi aku Landcons ni okay sangat utk mereka yang takdelah mencari sangat kemewahan dalam accomodation,with a reasonable price, dengan erti kata lain tidur okay toilet okay - settle lah. and plus its a walking distance to Chenang beach :D

Had our first dinner at Haji Ramli since its one of the korang-kena-makan-kat-sini suggestion.
Personal review, sedap lah worth the money even though aku rasa dia mahal sikit compared than the standard price. Next, shopping for tomorrow island hoping and beach day! :D
Oh well, biasa lah perempuan. Dengan beach hat nya, pario nya. Alasan "Langkawi panas okay." relevant nya kenapa kena ada beach hat.

       

Day two | Wednesday 5th December.

Island Hoping day! :D RM25/person is one of standard price.
Basically akan cover boat trip to Pulau Dayang Bunting -> Pulau Singa Besar -> Pulau Beras basah.

Seperti mitos yang diperkatakan, kalau nak subur mandi lah kat sini. Tapi itu mitos lah kan. Common sense nya, you know what to do.  La la la.
Recomended kena pakai life jacket yang disewa. Pit-stop one hour.

Pulau Singa Besar actually pit-stop utk tengok eagle feeding. Takde lah apa-apa sangat sebab akan duduk dalam bot je and tengok eagle tu catch makanan yang dicampak abg bot. Sebab umur pun dah 20-an so takdelah macam nak Omg helang sangat kannnnnnnn.

Okay next, Pulau Beras Basah. Pit-stop ni hang pi mandi-mandi pantai. The sand was super soft, lembut bak pasir dalam hourglass tu. Okay ni baru macam excited sikit :p

Ni macam bujet snow lah kan. Bila fikir balik, takde motif jugak. haha.

Petang tu kteorg main banana boat dekat Pantai Chenang. RM10/person.

Jatuh dua kali. Kteorg begging kat abang tu, Nak jatuh kat tempat cetek PLEASEEEEEEEEEEE.

Okay fine, first jatuh tu. TAK CETEK pun. Aku as someone yang paranoid air and lemas, lagi lah bertambah paranoid. How could youuuuu.

Oleh sebab aku hilang keyakinan dekat tahap 'cetek' abang bot tu, aku je yang tak jatuh dari banana boat sebab hold on too tight. Lepas beberapa saat aku tgk belakang baru sedar semua orang dah jatuh. FAIL. Lepas tu kau bujet konon nak parasailing. 

Ohh Pleaseeeeeee -_-

Third day | Thursday 6th December

Chocolate shopping day! First pit-stop Kedai Haji Ismail, sebab based on short survey its one of the cheapest you can get around there. Despite mungkin murah sepuluh sen. Worth. Apa lah makna nya balik dari Langkawi kalau tak pulang berbekal kan Daim, kan?

Suggestion: Shopping lah chocolate time last day or nak dekat balik if hotel takde fridge, or end up some of them actually cair :(

Datarn Lang. 

Aktiviti : Camwhore di tengah panas berlumur kan sunblock. Tegar. 

Salam perantaaun 2013.

Terima kasih JPA.

Chenang beach

 Tiba-tiba a guy ni datang dekat kteorg,
" Hey i like your hats. Mine is small. Yours is big. Take a picture! " 

Sampai sekarang tak sure tu perli ke puji.

Friendship rings.
No, we are never too old for that :p

Fourth day | Friday 6th December.

Went for the cable car. Surprisingly, the fear of height had been overshadow by the fear of water.
Ke di-overshadow dengan panggilan tunang? malam semalam. Tettttttttttt.
Yang lain muka nervous je dalam tu. Alalalarh comel je.

Next, Gamat House and Pantai Pasir Hitam. Lepas tu BALIK! :(

Pegang tangan takut jatuh nanti :p

♥

So thats the end of the our Langkawi wrap-up.

Lepas ni sorang-sorang fly pergi tempat yang lain. Sobs.

Euro tour, next. Maybe? :D 

InsyaAllah. kalau ada rezeki, we will surely meet each other again. 

Untill then ....

Lots of love,

your Intan Nur Hadilah .

" Nothing makes the earth seems spacious as to have friends at a distance, they make the latitudes and longitudes."

Congratulations

You remember those days; last 5 yrs, in intec?

You remember the days in IMU?

I remembered them. The studies, assignments, exams that you went through.

You are a smart one. I know that.

You are going to continue the ireland dream. Me very happy for you.

Congrats intan nur hadilah. You did well. You deserve this.

-sarah hani

✈✈✈

Tidak sabar mahu pulang ke Malaysia ;)
I am in the midst of finals right now. Tggl 2 MCQ pprs:D

Selain itu there is another holiday trip right after MCQ ppr with the girls ;)
Lets look forward to that first :D

Doa kan Intan please? :)

I really wish this is my last EOS in IMU.
IMU, i love you, love you enough to let you go. As National University of Ireland awaits me. Do you NUI? InsyaAllah :)

Need to pass. Need to pass.
Its the least i can wish for.

Youuu, yes youu!
Pray hard fr me would you? Thank youu. Really do appreciate it ♥

To find the best out of the worse.

One fine morning. Was on the phone with my little sister.

Kakak: Nana tahu takk.... bla bla bla bla.

Nana: Ehh kakak biarlah nana yang call. Nana kan dapat free call hari ni dari Maxis.

Kakak: Huh? Kenapa? Today is not your birthday pun?

Nana: Ohh nana kan guna number Papa. Today.... birthday Papa. Hari ni kan 9th November.

Sudden silence.

Kakak: Nana.... i hate youuuuuu. *crack voice*

Nana: Sorry lahhh... *crack voice too*

By the end of the conversation,

Nana: Today jangan lupa baca Yasin tau. Hadiah utk papa.


:')
My little sister has grown up to one new, BETTER level. Alhamdulillah, May Allah keep us always under His protection. <3

Touch footie

Rasa pelik.
A girl posted a pic on insta. herself and friends along the beach, pakai kain yg tiup2 angin yg slalu prempuan pakai tepi pantai (this shows i dont have enough tatabahasa about fashion==). Post pun nak ayu....

And on the same day, these girls (below pics), were playing touch footie (soft rugby), along the seaside.

Same setting, same gender, different activity.

I reckon my activity was better n alot more fun involved :D

It was such an experience :) playing touch footie along the seaside of wollongong. 2012.

"WHYYYY?!" You may asked.

intan nur hadilah

As we grow older, there will be more responsbility, more expectation and more challenges.

Nak dekat dekat exam ni, being mentally suppressd my time end up emotion pun boleh jadi fragile.
As a student of whatever course perhaps you'll reach a point where you end up being so stress and starts questioning.

" Why the heck i choose medicine?"

" Menyesal nya aku amik course ni dulu. Kalau amik course lain mesti senang."

BUKAN SAJA-SAJA Allah meletakkan anda dalam BIDANG itu..
BUKAN SAJA-SAJA Allah mengurniakan anda KEPAKARAN itu..
BUKAN SAJA-SAJA Allah memasukkan KELEMAHAN itu..
BUKAN SAJA-SAJA Allah memberikan UJIAN sebegitu..
BUKAN SAJA-SAJA Allah membiarkan anda mengemudi dalam KEADAAN sebegitu..

MELAINKAN Allah tahu anda akan memberikan sesuatu dalam bidang itu..
MELAINKAN Allah tahu anda bakal membiakkan ilmu-ilmu itu..
MELAINKAN Allah akan temukan anda dengan insan-insan ikhlas membantu..
MELAINKAN Allah mahu menguatkanmu..
MELAINKAN Allah mahu anda tahu betapa tingginya kasih sayangNya padamu..
Masihkah lagi tidak bersyukur?

#copied

WORD.
Came across this when i feel so despair. Awwww :')

Its true they said,
When Allah brings you to it, He will take you through it.

End of semester 5 (2012)
29days to final EOS5.

Timun

Tahukah anda:
Side effects timun adalah;
1. Allergic rxn
2. Indigestion in certain pipel

Benefits timun;
1. Anti cancer
2. Hydration
3. Skin n hair healthy-ness


*gambar di kepilkan menunjukkn lgkh2 yg sdg diambil utk promote healthier tummy :)

It is alright :)

When you plan and get all excited about it. Please be ready for an abrupt change to it. :)
it is alright.
you dont have the rights to control the weather. At all.

#notetoself. 13oct2012

*1st time guna blogger mobile. Jakun. Hihi

osce 2012

i was online. looking through facebook last evening.
*suddenly*
"keow teow (bukan nama sebenar) wrote on UWS med page - OSCE results are out in vUWS"

i panicked. did'nt expect for it to be released tday! palpitation, my heart beat was so apparent.

i was alone in the study room,and decided to inform UWS-msia 16 bout this news..

and then, it is just me and my palpitations....

time passes by so quickly. i decided to search on "my grades" through vUWS. n when the writings are all up, revealing the results.

i got so scared, i changed the tab. talked to myself...just to make sure i am prepared. "hani, if fail..xpe.ada masa utk remediate"....

so,i hit the vUWS tab. and there were so many numbers. i did'nt understand. but came to a conclusion...

I PASSed osce 2012 =) all praise to Allah. thank you, parents too :)

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reminiscing that Wednesday.
my session was the last for the day.
all the examiners and the simulated patients are exhausted. they really look tired
the students are the ones who look so pumped up at that time
you cant blame the built up anxiety since morning.

days before osce, conflicts came to say hi. and said bye not long after.
osce was really important.conflicts should be best avoided at that time.
but with fragility of emotions and minds, so many things were revealed
heart breaks, dissatisfaction; things that happened years ago, revealed.
oh ..

i have always been very scared with osce.
due to the past Hx in 2nd yr.
comm skill n hx taking stations were the most intimidating ones.
anything  to do with  conversing
days, hours, minutes before osce.i had to console myself. to be more calm. =)

finished the 1.5hours exam.
i wanted to cry, leaving the last station
and i wasnt sure whether i was sad or
just cant believe that the rollercoaster ride of adrenaline for every 8mins,was over.
went home with a tension headache. so severe, i got really moody n went to bed straight away

that night, the msian 3rd years of UWS med, had dinner in Rashays. a stress reliever? maybe =)

post-osce syndrome:
it was so tiring,
the mind was unable to digest 8 stations..back to back.n adrenaline was pumping through out.
the mind will keep on recalling "what happened in each station" "what i should not do" "why didn't i do that?!" "will that mistake fail me?"
it keeps on repeating over n over again in you own lil mind.
tradisi apt52; we dont talk/describe any exam related issues before and after any exams.


so,alright osce 2012 is done.alhamdulillah.lets get the written paper done. n lets go home after that.

much love,
sarah.

Saturday and Sunday.

This statement needs its own blog post. A BIG achievement of mine. After 2years and few months living in Bukit Jalil,

I finally survived staying a full weekend in Vista. Indeed!

Apa? Achievement okayyyyy.
Everyone here knows i belong to,
"Intan? Wajib balik rumah time weekend punya" :P

And so, out of the blue (not so) i decided to, "Aku tak balik minggu ni."
Alright itu je motif post ni :D

Thank you AM.

Apa itu EOS5?

Ohhh my.
I miss blogging. With all my heart. Haihh. Over.
To actually sit in front of the laptop, indulge in my blogging mode is nearly imposible.

Currently I'm a victim of time.
Final EOS5 is freaking near the corner.
19th November 2012.

Kena cover 9 system.
Cardio, Respi, Gastro, Endo...zzzz
Repro, Renal, MSK, Neuro.
OSCE lagi. OSPE!
GILA kannnnnnnn. Nangis please?

Time sem 3, aku ingat lagi selalu fikir hebat gila senior boleh pass.
And now, trust me people,
THOSE WHO PASS EOS5 = AWESOME GILA!

Untuk aku lahh kan.

Ada je moment, yang aku rasa nak give up. Hopeless. Clueless. Felt like a failure.

" Tak bertarung lagi, Kau dah cakap failure. Jangan give up." -SH

" Allah tak marah kita tak pandai, tapi Allah marah kita tak belajar."

And so, i shall


KEEP CALM AND STUDY MEDICINE.

Yeay! :D

Latest update,
Yazmir the first in the circle to be engaged. And soon to be married! :D

Had last breakfast with the boys before they fly back to Brighton and Bangalore. The next time we'll see Yazmir, he is a husband to a lady.
*GASP*

Time flies.

The next time you see my post, I'll be someone wife too :)

*GASP* haha. Harapan lah.
Exam exam exam! :pp

For my twins who is born on different date,

AND SO! 4th September is always considered as one of the TARIKH KERAMAT.

Habis lah kalau lupa. Sebab,

ITS SARAH HANI'S
BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! :D

and its her 21st birthday.

Sorry Sarah this year, im literally far far farrrrrr awayyyyyyyyyyyy from you.

Aku tak mampu nak ketuk pintu rumah kau and say, SUPRISEEEEEEEEE! 

Sobs :(

By now, you should have known how i always feel about you, dont you Sarah? ;)

Need to say more? Nahhhh. too lesbo-ish.

BUT!

Biasa lah me being lame and sometimes too corny. YEAHH. 

I did a GIF for youuuuuu. hehe :P
SERIOUSLY it was.......... lame lah jugak. HA HA.

Buat pukul 1am. Guna iphone apps JE -_-

 

tak nampak last piece. ishh.

" Take care. I ♥ You"

Jauh di mata, dekat di hati.

Selalu.

The one that got away.

Yes, every soul will taste death. Its a promise we have to believe in.
A promise we have to put our ultimate faith on.
Either its unexpected, expected. Sudden,neither foresee.

I dont see it coming at all. WE dont see it AT ALL.
A few days back from 24th June,

My family was planning a surprise family gathering for my birthday.
A few days back, we were having a normal conversation.

22nd June, Friday

Papa was admitted to the emergency dept because he fell in the toilet and broke one of his rib.

24th June, 12a.m. 

Just an hour ago, i was at home. Making a home-made Tiramisu cake.
When Abang called from the hospital around 12.00am. Crying and terrified.

" Kakak.... Abang tk tahu apa jadi!! Dorang tengah de-fibrillate Papa. Cepat datang. BAWA SEMUA ORANG."

Ya Allah. Sumpah speechless.
Trying hard not to cry and stay calm, i woke Mama up and asked Nana and Kak Siti to get in the car.
Everyone was asking me what happen. Urging me to tell. But i cant. Not yet.
And, Mama cant stop crying in the car.

He revived. But the doctor said papa was critical. His heart stopped.
Dr just bagi two person at once masuk and tengok.
Machine was everywhere. Different wires were attached . He was breathing trough a respiratory machine. Sedih. Setiap orang yang masuk, mesti akan menangis bila keluar.
My sister being the closest to papa was literally menangis and meraung. She was just too weak at that moment. We had to calm her down.

It was the longest night of my life.
Sitting beside his hospital bedside, waiting for him to wake up.
Holding his cold hand, while listening to people reciting Yassin.
Perhaps that would be the longest time of my life holding his hand.
Counting every second of the ventilation machine to beep. Continue to beep and beeping.

Every second at that moment worth more than anything in the world.

I remembered how terrified i was, when the respiratory machine seems to stop functioning even for one second. One second.

7am +

Two specialist were talking to me. They gave him drugs to stabilize his blood pressure.
And suddenly, the nurse yelled,

 " Doctor! Asystole. Asystole."

Doctors and nurses rushed to his bed, pulled the curtain.
A nurse brought the oxygen tank. Another brought the defibrillator, again.
I knew this can be THAT moment.
Aku tak tahu macam mana nak describe saat ni.
Praying HARD, trying to give whatever you can offer to God, to give you just another chance.
Shaking, crying and silently praying.

" Ya Allah tolong lah. Bukan sekarang. Tapi kalau ajal papa dah sampai, Kau redha kan lah hati kami."

Ironically, as cliche as it can be.
After 10 minutes, the doctor walked out and said, " Im so sorry but we tried our best. Sent your prayers for him"

..........................................

Let the rest be in my memories.

The last time i talked to him was on Saturday. The 2nd of his admission.

"Okay papa, kakak nak balik dulu tau. Bye bye. See you tomorrow." Kissed his forehead.

He replied, while attached to the oxygen mask,
" Okay kakak jaga diri baik baik eh."

And, I never foresee that would be the last time i talked to him. The last time i saw him alive.
That was his last word to me.

InsyaAllah I will.

♥

" Allah rindu mendengar rintihan mu, kerana itu Allah memberi sedikit ujian, agar kamu ingat kepadaNya."

i called but i didn't wish :)

today is the 25th of june 2012. siapa yang kenal intan nur hadilah (or plg busuk pun, kwn thru her fb....), u'll know it is a special date (cz u might get a notification in ur fb home page). if i am back in Malaysia, i will get something done (cikai2 pun,at least roti canai sekeping :D) .. but it has not been me who celebrated this wonderful day with her for this past 3yrs - tahniah lerr M.... haha.

due to what happened yesterday,24th of june (i'll leave it to intan to MAYBE blog about it anytime later). there is d dilemma of appropriation to celebrate the event today. the whole day, i was thinking how to make celebrate in a subtle way. not to extravaganza (not that i can make it the best day of her life being thousand of kilometres apart tho =='), but just to respect what happened yesterday.

i know intan nur hadilah for approx 7yrs. i dont know her,inside out.but i at least should know (read: expected to know) how she wants today to turn out to be. before yesterday, i can honestly imagine what she wants, d dinner for two, a surprise visit from me (eh? haha)..
but for 25th of june 2012, i dont. we have never encounter such scenario like this before. never talked about it. never thought that such events in life will happen anytime soon. but janji Allah itu sempurna, it will happen when it is the time. 


on the other hand, being 21 is once in a life time moment. you can't TURN 21 over n over again, or choose to turn 21 maybe in the next yr or two. it doesnt work like that. so, i will grab this time spent to blog about your BIRTHDAY intan nur hadilah :)

first and foremost,

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY

(saywhatteveryouwant,youarestillmyperson)

last year, i gave you a birthday video. this year, could but didn't (sorry) make it in time to make something big for you. n obviously i cant buy a flight ticket to KUL because i have classes as usual :) the aim to celebrate our birthdays together (to cover up on d last 3 yrs of ur birthdays that i missed, n vice versa too!) at ampang lookout point will always be looked forward too (i dont know when that will happen,but i hope it will happen sometime :D)

a birthday must always come with wishes truely from the heart.....so here it goes babe.haha
1. may Allah bless your steps taken (n will be taking) to be a better person, in every aspect in life.
2. may you be granted success in exams, n future n life hereafter.
3. strength and courage to go through negative emotions.
4. alot of $$$ (so that we can go holiday together! haha)
5. the guy that is really meant for you,with qualities of a good husband :D
6. may you have good memory capacity to always remember me ;)

alright intan, being 21 is not like being 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12,13,14,15,16,17,18,19,20...
more life challenges will come and pay a visit to you. more dramas will happen. more dreams will be created. all the best, kawan baik :)

iloveyou as much as you do.maybe more.haha.

sarah hani signing out.

issues

a cold winter evening in Sydney :)

alone in my room. feels like blogging about something.but topics that come through my mind are all about studies..whaaaaa o.o i just dont hav interesting topics to blog about.bukan mcm si intan tu,ada je bnda yg dia nk tulis.haha. p/s: thanks for d previous post :')

currently, life di sini x seronok pun. byk kli aku try bygkn either intn dtg belajar sini thun dpn, or aku di malaysia anytime soon. life now is too routine. pagi2 bersiap ke hospital for a dreadful whole morning ward rounds (serious bosan). **imisssurgerytermsobadly* '

kawan lama...kau dah berputus hubungan dgn gadis itu ke?

holding on.in a very tough way.

terasa nak makan char keow teow ada kerang and udang besar.


sudah lah.bye

I'll love you for a thousand more.

intan nur hadilah

Terasa macam nak cerita.
Siapa lah tak tahu, Sarah Hani & Intan Nur Hadilah, the always-together twins in high school.
Memang tak dapat dinafikan, pergi mana-mana pun mesti berdua.
Sampai masuk college, takdir memisahkan kita. sobs.

But still nothing change as much back then in college.
We still texted each other like most of the time, shared even the slightest details of our life.
Plus minus, bila ada masing-masing start ada boyfriend time tu. Biasa lah conflict kawan baik, bila attention di-deviate kepada orang lain. Gaduh macam suami isteri. Comel nya kita sarahhhhhhhhhhhhhh? haha :P
Ohh well itu DULU.

Back in my 'belasan' tahun, i believe we all have this ideology of, BEST FRIENDS FOREVER.
We believe that nothing's gonna change, and no matter how old we are, best friends will always be happy together.

Well, its still not wrong to believe that.

Sambung balik cerita.
And untill the day Sarah finally flew of to Sydney. One of the saddest phase of my life.
To be separated away from my 'other-half'.

us.

First few month was hard. Time tu smart phone tkdelah common sangat.
Whatsapp, Viber bagai tu, kira the most new thing in town.
So we spent quite lots of money, on international calls and text.
We promise each other to try hard to keep our friendship as strong as we used to, no matter what.

But times goes by. Masing-masing semakin busy dengan life budak medic yang tak tentu busy nya ni.
And plus the time difference yang buat susah untuk kteorg 'parallel' kan free time.
Even though when we already connected to the most fastest and convenience communication ever.
Whatsapp, Viber, Skype, Twitter etc.
The text and call slowly 'dissapear'. The ritual update become less and lesser.
And we feel even far than we already are.

Honestly, banyak isu tak puas hati manja yang timbul dalam fasa ni.
Isu cemburu
Isu 'kenapa aku je yang selalu nak kena tegur kau dulu",
Isu " fine lah dia lagi penting dari aku now."

Haha.
Hot and cold, Dark and bright. Happy and sad. All in one.


Untill,

I learnt the meaning of loving someone not for the sake of dunya, only.
I search for the real meaning of it. And i finally came cross to an article, which change the whole perception of our friendship to me. Im not good in explaining these things. But do read it if you want :)

Things will definitely change. What matter is how you handle it.

Yes there are things in life where we imagine and dream of how life would be.
And we try our very best to make it true. Tapi akhirnya kita hanya manusia biasa.
So we have to believe on a power beyond our ability to make the rest as beautiful as it might be.

Sarah Hani is not 'mine'. She is a gift borrowed by Him for me. So does, this friendship.
If we cant even keep up with the most fastest net in the world, I shall put my heart and trust in Him to make this friendship goes fonder each day even without the 'how are you' texts.
And whenever i miss her, i'll pray that she can feel it too. hihi :')

All praised to Him, all those unnecessary emotional tense and burden on us, is slowly being understood and accepted with love ♥ :)

She is still my dearest person, and will always be. InsyaAllah.
I love you Sarah Hani, for the sake of Him
:)


Oh my, panjang gila post ni :p

kak Diana Rizal :)

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Dear Kak Dee, the only person on planet Earth who will call me Jewels.

How time flies, you had finally graduated from IMU and flying off too Scotland next Tuesday.
Congratulation my dear, you deserve every single of it :)

I'm not sure how we can be this close.
I cant remember how we started, but I can surely remember the wonderful feeling of having you around.
And I know for sure I'll be missing you, BIG TIME :(

Akan,

Rindu jumpa kak Dee around IMU with your purple bag.
Rindu kacau kak Dee dekat library.
Rindu borak dengan kak Dee.
Rindu nak mengada-ngada.

You are like a big sister to me, and of course to our other dear friend too, you know who.
A 'consultant' for us too, perhaps? :p Being there, for the up and down.
I can randomly tell you everything and anything, you'll be one of the person i look for if i need some personal opinion whenever I'm lost.
And your response always make me go,

"OMG, kak dee sangat memahamiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii! "

I shall thank HIM, for a sister named Diana Rizal. For this lovely friendship. Alhamdulillah.

Take care in Scotland. May Allah ease you life over there.
And balik nanti intan nak souvenir okay? :DD

Uhibbukifillah ♥


P.s: Please dont make me cry. Thank you for writing this :')

selingan

i am sarah hani. i am still alive. life has been busy. n it is getting colder here,down under.

bye.

intan nur hadilah, hi! :D

Save the best for last (?)

intan nur hadilah.

Tergerak hati untuk tulis juga walaupun sebenarnya niat di hati nak post benda lain sebelum ni.
Have you heard of Dena Bahrin? Di mana satu ketika video dia di-proposed jadi satu fenomena?

Oh well, She's married! :D
' Akak' doakan korang bahagia. haha. Omg, tua setahun je padahal.

Btw, aku baca latest blog post dia. Seperti biasa, review yang aku baca di sana sini, sweet nyaa etc.
Menarik. She's only 20 and macam mana nak cakap eh, she see things in a totally different way of what typical 20 years old girls should be thinking. The right way. Alhamdulillah, for her :)

RESPECT.

Bukan lah issue kahwin awal yang aku nak higlight. But issue 'save it after the marriage' by her.
Honestly berada di tempat aku, menjadi diri aku, i used to have those episodes of my heart-ache 'love story'.
Menangis, gembira, suka duka, benci sayang, rindu.

All praised to HIM, recently i feel so blessed by the 'gift' He sent me.
Semakin sedar, tahu apa yang salah and betul.
Belum lagi sempurna, dan mungkin tak akan sempurna.
Tapi sekurang-kurang nya crawling slowly out of my 'comfort zone'.

And this little girl's words some how inspired me as much as i could never imagined.

" If the 'Love' makes you become worse. Let it go. it's hard. Allah knows and He will replace someone better for you. If the Love makes your relationship with family or beloved people worse, turn to Allah for decision, Allah knows the best. If you're in dilemma what you want and what make things better. Have faith in Allah, He knows what you've done.He knows what you've sacrificed. Dan, cinta itu memang perlukan pengorbanan." 

First time baca this paragraph, rasa macam sangat...... speechless.
Does this girl just read whats on my mind and heart?! Okay coincidence.

Oh yes its hard and Im letting go of the the past 'love story'.
For good, InsyaAllah.


And for the future,

 "  If you love someone, protect the 'love' . Protect the sweetness"


"  Girls, protect your dignity,your heart and guys, please protect the girl you love. Please save your love story. Choose someone to marry, not someone for you to only walking around and be happy.  "

:)
May Allah bless you, dunya and akhirah. ♥

Me, a family, house, a family.

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Dear future husband ( who ever you will be),

I have a mini request for you.
Would you willing to learn the guitar chord of this song? Pretty please?
Okay that's all for now.
More request will be mention later.
Thank you :P

" And when I'm eighty years old, I'm sitting next to you."

♥

Mama, Mummy, Ibu, Ummi?

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Tahu tak time sekolah rendah dulu kalau time perhimpunan or time kena kumpul dalam dewan sekolah, akan ada time yang bosan. Time tu takde gadget nak main game ke apa. So kteorg akan main game sendiri, conteng belakang kawan guna jari and suruh dia teka huruf apa. Yang paling comel, kteorg akan kumpul nama-nama comel yang possible nak dijadikan nama anak nanti.

Tapi yang tu macam sampai sekrang je still main lagi. haha :D

Aku tak sure lah about the guys, but im pretty sure bout the ladies. When you're up to your teen and the twenty's and meet adorable babies (as every baby is), mesti reaction akan macam...

" Awwwwww, comel gila.."

Pastu akan lambai kt baby tu sambil cakap, " Byeeee :D " If ada yang extreme sikit, sanggup jalan kat budak tu and akan cubit pipi dia sebab tak tahan sangat. Kannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn? :p

Come on, how can you resist THIS? ;)

As a women who carries the gene of XX, one of the natural greatest gift is to be a mother.

To love a human being more than your own life.

And im pretty sure (again) too that most of my girl friends that i know currently, are so excited and eagerly for those moment. Alalarhh aku tahu :p

Awwwww .

And so, i was thinking.. If we are so excited about having our own kids and family, ohh well same goes to our parents back then. Dont you think? Im sure that our mothers went to the same phase, where they are so excited of having their own children, which indirectly turn out to be you and me.

" Takde harta yang lagi berharga untuk mama sekarang, melainkan kamu tiga orang."

I heard this before, indeed several time in my life. But perhaps, i cant yet relate the significance of those words to my life back then. As i grow older and what i want in the future seems more clearer now, those words finally make sense. A LOT.

" A human body can bear only up to 45 del (unit) of pain. yet at time of giving birth, a mother feels up to 57 del 9unit) of pain. this is similar to 20 bones getting fractured at a time."

Can you imagine it now, the mother's pain and love?

And that is only the pain they went trough while giving birth. What about the pain through out raising us up until we become a 'human' until now?

As we are getting older, and so do our mothers.What they really want in their senior ages now is our attentions. Not the money.. And even when they are no longer alive in this world, one of the way that you can contribute for them is through your prayers.


Sebenarnya tak tahu pun motif sebenarnya nak tulis post ni. Just terasa macam nak tulis.

Mama selalu end our phone call with, " Okayy.. Love you." and how would my life would be one day, if i cant never EVER hear that again?


Awak, dah tanya khabar mak awak for today belum? :)

Rindu nya.

Penat melayan drama. Karenah manusia yang kadang-kadang aku tak faham.
Rindu nya orang yang memahami.
Rindu nya sincerity.
Rindu nya some part of the old me.

Rindu nya kawan baik, the other half. Ujian.

Sarah Hani, i miss you.





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Here's a cupcake for you.

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From my random observation, i spent most of my money on food. yes FOOD!And the weird thing is, im not sure if its a good or bad thing? -_-I found my short happiness on food, I guess. Whenever i feel 'unhappy', the second thing i will hunt is fooooooooooood.Baskin Robbin ke, cake Secret Recipe ke or simple Crunchie or Cornetto will do.
Its been few weekends where i spent my time baking. And please, ini bukan termasuk dalam fasa 'Amboii, dah boleh kahwin dah niiii.'
Saja suka-suka and mungkin juga sebab seronok kot.Tapi yang pelik nya lagi, i find it fun to bake, but i dont really find it fun to eat it.
And bukan sedap tak sedap okayyyy. Excuse me. Tapi aku lebih seronok if orang lain makan, kot lah :D
So i started my first experiment with rainbow cupcakes.DO YOU HOW EASY IT IS TO DO THIS?!And of course lah, i Google everything about it. Whats life without Google.
So this is one of  my favorite recipe for it.

the colours. purple tak jadi! :s

Ohh harap maaf, picture end product tiada sebab sebenarnya kannnn..... hurmm, it turned out to be quite disastrous. HAHA.  Nak tunjuk bakal mak mertua pun malu i :(
Post-mortem : That was because i used a wrong cake mix and perhaps the baking arrangement was wrong.

Moving on.
So i did my second experiment using from scratch cupcakes mix. And i found this simple white cupcakes recipe on Google. And this time, it was great. Yeay? :p


Tapi yang paling seronok bila buat dengan nana yang excited. So most of the time we played with the frosting. There were PINK butterfly, flowers, letters and whatever shapes a human can recognize.

Get what i meant? 

Last weekend was Mama's birthday. So again, Google found me a simple to try-out cupcakes recipe.OREO CHEESECAKE CUPCAKES! Tahu tak senang gila je?!  Sila baca dalam nada excited. Sila.

btw  i used a cheaper version of cream cheese.  Selalu nya Philadelphia yang paling common  baker guna
saya noob-ies je.

And so, end product,



Ada orang cakap kan kan............ rasa dia mcm cake Secret Recipe. Alalalarh. over je tau you all :')
Haha, please lahhhh. Mama suka, so im happy regardless what ♥
Maybe lama lagi kot untuk aku try experiment lain sebab TAK STUDY KE WEH WEEKENDS.Dah lama tak study yang skema punya kot, sejak masuk 4th semester,so called the 'honeymoon' sem ni.Dah dapat seru rajin. Alhamdulillah. Tolong lah jangan pergi dibawa angin :(

Seronok tau baking. Awak, try lah :)

p.s: Kepada sesiapa yang curious, minta maaf saya tak terima tempahan. 

pp.s: HAHA :p